It's so hard to find a way

[urgent]

I'm really in a terrible situation. I didn't know I would end up with no quality of life and unable to do anything about it myself. I would have looked into eol options and been prepared. I now know to advise people I know to prepare. To late for me unfortunately. I can see a beautiful day outside but I'm in agony and can't enjoy anything. Literally everything is painful. I have begged for it to end. Everything people do from eating, drinking to walking, sleeping is painful for me. I can't take it and yet I have to all day every day. I just want it to end.

 

[itsgone2]

I feel the same way. Everything seems like a mountain to climb.
Life doesn't seem possible now. No part of it. Hard to describe.
Six months ago I was so alive. To be destroyed after that hurts. I know what a good life is now.
Too late
It stings so much. Life. It's supposed to be a blessing.

 

[urgent]

I feel the same way. Everything seems like a mountain to climb.
Life doesn't seem possible now. No part of it. Hard to describe.
Six months ago I was so alive. To be destroyed after that hurts. I know what a good life is now.
Too late
It stings so much. Life. It's supposed to be a blessing.

I understand. I agree but I've been truly suffering for a few years now. I'm in excruciating pain, nothing helps, I'm really suffering but in the US we get stuck without MAiD and not being able to travel. It's so wrong that I have to live this way. It should be inhumane that a doctor can't give me assistance when I clearly have no quality of life. A lot of the meds they push cause more harm. Why can't I have the right to have someone help me? It's wrong to take away our rights. I'm sorry you are suffering. I'm sorry we are all here because we don't have rights to our own life.

 

[itsgone2]

I understand. I agree but I've been truly suffering for a few years now. I'm in excruciating pain, nothing helps, I'm really suffering but in the US we get stuck without MAiD and not being able to travel. It's so wrong that I have to live this way. It should be inhumane that a doctor can't give me assistance when I clearly have no quality of life. A lot of the meds they push cause more harm. Why can't I have the right to have someone help me? It's wrong to take away our rights. I'm sorry you are suffering. I'm sorry we are all here because we don't have rights to our own life.

I can we're the same. Many here I'm sure.
Years? I can't imagine.
I total I'd have years but long bouts of recovery too. Bouts of normal.
Also bouts of insanity. Physical pain. Insomnia. Attempts. Regret.
Damnit I had a family. I had love and friendship and community. All gone. I destroyed all that why can't I destroy myself too?

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly is terrible extreme cruelty how painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing are made inaccessible with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's so horrific how there's all this extreme suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.