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LittleNelson

LittleNelson

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Dec 18, 2021
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I've been dealing with severe depression and suicidal thoughts for more than 20 year. I made my only serious attempt about 15 years ago. Then I started taking anti-depressants which numbed me but the depression never went away. I always had this hope that things would get better but they never did. Now I have no friends, no money, and I can't even afford to keep taking my anti-depressants. I feel like I'm at the end of a long, dark road and there's no escape. So it definitely doesn't get better!
 
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SomewhatLoved

SomewhatLoved

all bleeding stops eventually...
Apr 12, 2023
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Sorry to hear your story. When you were, for example, 10 years in did you think things would get better?

I think a lot of people worry they will look back after being this way for a long time and regret that it never got better.
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
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Sorry to hear your story. When you were, for example, 10 years in did you think things would get better?

I think a lot of people worry they will look back after being this way for a long time and regret that it never got better.
Yes regret assuming other people who were older knew something I didn't about finding meaning in life when from a young age I could never see or feel it.
 
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Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

Experienced
Nov 22, 2024
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That's the part they leave out...

"It gets better. For some people..."
 
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LittleNelson

LittleNelson

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Dec 18, 2021
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Sorry to hear your story. When you were, for example, 10 years in did you think things would get better?

I think a lot of people worry they will look back after being this way for a long time and regret that it never got better.
Yes I really thought it would get better which is why I kept living. But sadly I kept having bad luck and the depression never went away. Now I really wish I had just taken my life 20 years ago.
 
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sweetcreep

sweetcreep

reincarnating as a worm
Jul 21, 2024
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i vent a lot in my notes app and i wrote something that i feel like most people would relate to. "it gets better before it gets worse." things always feel like they're getting a bit better until they inevitably crash and burn, leaving things even worse than before. only a few people really do get better. not everyone.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
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It doesnt get better for a lot of people with treatment resistant depression sadly
 

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