HelloIamSummer
Sunset chaser
- Nov 5, 2022
- 30
Hello everyone!
In 2022 I was posting here, talking about ending my life. Since then, a lot has changed. My dad became depressed, he started drinking a lot more and became abusive. He passed away last June from a heart attack. I started talking about how I was sexually abused as a child. There was an investigation and everything. My life just kind of started falling apart even more than it did before.
But the thing is, with the help of my therapist, I slowly started to put myself together. I slowly learned what it feels like to be okay, to be happy. In the midst of a storm, I started to feel okay. I'm really happy with my life and with myself now. I've lost 40 kg, run a marathon, I have straight As right now and I've finally learned how to love myself more.
But it's not because I'm super resilient. I've given up on myself many times and told myself I'll never get better because I don't want to.
My message is not to hold on a little longer and believe that it gets better. Just to be cautious of what your brain tells you when you're having a hard time. And be kind to yourself, even when it's hard. You're doing okay. Just because you're struggling or you haven't achieved all you want to, doesn't make you lazy or not worthy or mean you're not trying hard enough. If I could tell my younger self something, when I was at my worst, neglecting everything, it definitely wouldn't be to try harder and have hope. I'd say, I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you, even when you're at your worst. Because I really needed to hear that. Maybe you do, too. So, I'm proud of you, whatever situation you're in.
In 2022 I was posting here, talking about ending my life. Since then, a lot has changed. My dad became depressed, he started drinking a lot more and became abusive. He passed away last June from a heart attack. I started talking about how I was sexually abused as a child. There was an investigation and everything. My life just kind of started falling apart even more than it did before.
But the thing is, with the help of my therapist, I slowly started to put myself together. I slowly learned what it feels like to be okay, to be happy. In the midst of a storm, I started to feel okay. I'm really happy with my life and with myself now. I've lost 40 kg, run a marathon, I have straight As right now and I've finally learned how to love myself more.
But it's not because I'm super resilient. I've given up on myself many times and told myself I'll never get better because I don't want to.
My message is not to hold on a little longer and believe that it gets better. Just to be cautious of what your brain tells you when you're having a hard time. And be kind to yourself, even when it's hard. You're doing okay. Just because you're struggling or you haven't achieved all you want to, doesn't make you lazy or not worthy or mean you're not trying hard enough. If I could tell my younger self something, when I was at my worst, neglecting everything, it definitely wouldn't be to try harder and have hope. I'd say, I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you, even when you're at your worst. Because I really needed to hear that. Maybe you do, too. So, I'm proud of you, whatever situation you're in.
