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- Jan 19, 2026
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I will attempt again on Friday the 13th, this time with yew. I will keep you guys updated on the journey
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I will attempt again on Friday the 13th, this time with yew. I will keep you guys updated on the journey
This the is the one thing I can't wait to do when if I can get SN, real time updates on feelings and thoughts after I take it, because I don't mind being Guinea Pig to find out if SN is a "meme" since there's legitimate questions raised about these past few weeks. If it sucks and no you don't have to worry about my SI kicking in, I'm fairly certain it's never existed for me, if you check my post history, I'll let people know.I will attempt again on Friday the 13th, this time with yew. I will keep you guys updated on the journey
Youre gonna do a diary like me about the process?This the is the one thing I can't wait to do when if I can get SN, real time updates on feelings and thoughts after I take it, because I don't mind being Guinea Pig to find out if SN is a "meme" since there's legitimate questions raised about these past few weeks. If it sucks and no you don't have to worry about my SI kicking in, I'm fairly certain it's never existed for me, if you check my post history, I'll let people know.
At least this way I've actually helped someone within my life. Even though it's at the very end.
Only hitch, my planned area doesn't have a lot of signal.
You are under my posts whenever i announce my attempt. Thanks for showing up FuneralCry <3I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
I'll try and upload on here for as long as I can after I take it, similar to another user a woman on here who unfortunately did regret it after.Thank you all <3 i know this method isnt the best but given my circumstances its what i need to do
@EternalSkies did some great testing for me aswell, no one in the world has ever consumed yew in that capacity, if youre still with us, thank you
Youre gonna do a diary like me about the process?
I'll try and upload on here for as long as I can after I take it, similar to another user a woman on here who unfortunately did regret it after.
If there's one thing I was thinking of, would be just using my discord account at the same time people from here taking notes on a VC for me etc. but idk how this would go down with site admins.
I have nobody would upload the feelings and effects for me after I die so it has to be this way.
thank you dewdfish <3I hope it all goes well!!!
That one sounds fun.My method isnt instant and it could be some excruciating 6 hours until i pass out, so i have enough time to text
thank you dewdfish <3
If you want some advice: dont do it with yew leaves. There are much more peaceful methods out thereAny update on this? I've made some pills with abt 50g of yew leaves and plan on using them soon. I tried to check OP's profile but it's restricted
SN, Hanging, Inert Gas, literally anything else honestly. Yea leaves will give you an excruciating death.Such as?