Gonna be CTB Today bye yall haha

[madmanbadman]

Well guys this is it tbh
Gonna CTB later
Im almost done with all the arts
just gonna watch spirited away and howl's moving castle
Then passion of the christ
Not gonna keep it long tbh,don't have alot of words to say this but i did enjoy this all of this
But it's over anyways

All I ask is God to Help my loved ones
(I know most people here don't believe but just let me die in peace lel)

Ill admit i still have a bit of survival instinct but not as much anymore
Im tired and i wanna go home
Anyways i had a good run
Thank you everyone for everything.
Xoxo

 

[android]

If you enjoyed it, you can turn back.
It's not too late.
It's weird to say you enjoyed life and be killing yourself. That doesn't sound sensible.

 

[halfstay]

I'm sorry life has driven you to this point friend. If you're unsure, there's no harm or shame in waiting and reconsidering your emotions later. But if you're dead set, I hope you find peace.

And I'm not personally a believer myself, but NO ONE should ever disrespect those beliefs. I'm positive God will look out for your loved ones during this hard time, just like you said. Take care, man.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I hope you find peace.

What's your method?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[sickofeverything]

What method did you decide on? Hope everything works out and you're at peace.

 

[fadedghost]

You're only 19. You shouldn't be committing suicide. You need to seek mental help. You don't have permanent problems. Go to therapy, try to get better. Not everyone does well in school; who cares? With AI, school is becoming increasingly irrelevant. You seem like someone who needs a therapist, not suicide.

I am not a pro-lifer and for people truly who have incurable medical problems or who have tried to get better over and over and can't, I understand when those people catch the bus... But you're very young, nothing is incurable, and you're extremely traumatized and could get better with therapy. This is a bad decision. You should go get help. You're literally a teen in crisis who has severe trauma and I didn't see anything in what I read about you trying to get better.

 

[ilovenewyork]

It's too soon. Why not wait a year or two? You're going to miss the fun of your 20s. It's so fun!

 

[Nolongerlive]

May the Peace be with you !

 

[kouna]

You're only 19. You shouldn't be committing suicide. You need to seek mental help. You don't have permanent problems. Go to therapy, try to get better. Not everyone does well in school; who cares? With AI, school is becoming increasingly irrelevant. You seem like someone who needs a therapist, not suicide.

It's too soon. Why not wait a year or two? You're going to miss the fun of your 20s. It's so fun!

When I was 23 I had similar feelings to the thread starter. So I decided to take a summer job at a hotel at the Greek Islands (super hard work but met some great clients and other workers) saved some money (around 6000 eur) and with that money I went backpacking for 3 months alone in India (only cost 2000 eur with flights). It was the best decision of my life. Watching poor people being happy gave me hope for the future, didn't really mingle with the other backpackers, I preferred to meet and do stuff with the locals.
If you are in America, take a backpacking trip to central and south America, if you are in Europe or Asia, go for south East Asia, or if you are more hardcore go for the Ex-soviet republics and Russia or even harder Yemen, Afghanistan, Iraq. Not for getting killed but for living the adventure of a lifetime.

Despite my mobility problems, my age (43) and other financial problems if I don't CTB the next months I'm going to Gambia -> Senegal -> Mauritania. Mauriiania is one fucked up place, one of the last places on earth where slavery is legal.

Backpacking gave me a new spur of life. If I was back in my 20s when I had no responsibilities I'd do it in a heartbeat and not at some cozy destination like thailand, laos Philippines, somewhere tough were few tourists go. I did India without internet, only with a book, nowadays even the most remote places have info and internet and it's much easier.