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If you could modify your body to look however you wanted would you still want ctb?

  • Yes

    Votes: 42 60.0%
  • No

    Votes: 17 24.3%
  • Unsure

    Votes: 11 15.7%

  • Total voters
    70
Foolishness

Foolishness

Member
Mar 29, 2025
32
Just wondering since I've seen a lot of people here comment on how much they hate their bodies.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,916
Yeah, pretty much. While I am not the hugest fan of my appearance, being able to modify it wouldn't do much to change my wanting to ctb. I just don't like being alive that much in general.
 
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Goodfornothingbish

Goodfornothingbish

Planner
Jun 20, 2023
568
Im always told im physically attractive. And honestly most of the time I hate it. But no I hate my mind. I hate how dissociated I've become
 
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Nothing Left

Nothing Left

🧿
Sep 6, 2024
208
No. At least for a while.

Assuming I could modify my body to be male, have all misalignments/injuries structurally restored, be physically attractive, then I could actually live the way I wanted to.

My physical avatar isn't the root of my problems, but it's a big part of them.
 
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Custos

Custos

Martyr
May 27, 2024
218
I don't care how people perceive me, how I look and I'm happy with my body. I do have issues with my weight and how I feel in terms of anorexic thinking, but those are nothing to do with my body itself.
 
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Ariii

Ariii

Student
Oct 29, 2023
137
Maybe not if I modified myself to be hot enough to marry an old rich man so I'd never have to work another day in my life xD. But realistically yes
 
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GhostInTheMachine

GhostInTheMachine

Stepping Stone
Nov 5, 2023
241
I'd probably be less likely to do it, or be able to put it off for longer. A lot of my issues come from dysphoria, but the state of the world wouldn't be better simply because I was.
 
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ChaiTea

ChaiTea

Member
Apr 17, 2023
60
tbh i'd probably make myself hotter so i could prostitute myself before i kms lmao
 
Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,179
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Johnzaga23

Experienced
Dec 10, 2024
230
well if i could become the hottest man alive and bitches are drooling over me and i work as a rich model then I would propably think about it
 
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cosmic-realism

Student
Sep 7, 2024
112
Nope.I would become a man and be safe.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,246
Given the choice, I'd probably opt for being a young, fit male. I'm a middle aged, overweight female. But sure, that would make my job easier. In terms of attractiveness though, I don't think I trust either men or women enough to want to attract a partner. Especially one who is so focussed on appearances.

Overall though, I don't think it would make me want to live much more though. It would just make it a little easier I suppose.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
842
I literally can't imagine it changing a single thing. Perks of the hermit life I guess. Appearances only mean something when you talk to people.
 
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mossmoth

mossmoth

Member
Mar 30, 2025
48
Changing my appearance would fix many of my problems.
- Fix dysphoria
- Make friends easier
- Self-Expression (Wear anything) without judgement
- Honestly do a lot more of ANYTHING without judgement
- Easier to get a job (Would be visibly male + not unattractive)

wouldn't give me energy, motivation, or fix my mind instantaniously, but surely life must be easier to live with a better social network and finances. Wage gap + Pretty privileges are real.
 
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8leveloquenfrn4evr8

Experienced
Nov 26, 2024
232
Probably not. Socializing is extremely superficial and I know that my body is consequently part of the reason I have failed in everything that has a social component. Having friends and admirers would lift my spirits and give me ways of remaining buoyant while waiting for a natural death. I might still have existential crises here and there and some of my problems would still haunt me but I would probably be so much better off that I'd be fine just waiting life out even if it didn't transform me into a purpose-driven explorer/risk taker and extrovert.
 
ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
624
My problems have absolutely nothing to do with my physical appearance, in fact I think I look pretty decent all things considered :P
 
Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,914
My appearance has very little negative effect on me. I am mostly love and comfortable with my body thanks to hrt. Only things I would want to change now are remove balls (can do with surgery which I will hopefully get soonish) get rid of all facial hair (not too big of an issue now as I have no facial hair shadow when shaved) and shorten my height (can't do anything with that with what we have now but not too biggie of a problem.) I literally have a body nearly perfect to me so whatever little changes I do to it won't change my suicidalness at all.
 
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Alice.

Alice.

~~<3~~
May 7, 2023
50
it would be pretty cool, but theres a lot worse things than my anatomy that makes me wanna do the thing i wanna do
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
260
Probably not. Pretty privilege and thin privilege are real things. Having life on easy mode and getting surrounded by friends and lovers who see the best in me and never give up on me just because I'm a baddie size 0 wouldn't erase the pain of my grief, but no longer being lonely and feeling secure that I'll have support would absolutely help my mental health.
 
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Unrecognizable7

Unrecognizable7

Student
Mar 22, 2025
187
It would make my life go from 0.1/10 to 8/10 its all i care about lol
 
F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,253
Nah. While I have dysphoria it has nothing to do with my mental health. I would CTB no matter what I looked like.
 
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TotalEclipse

TotalEclipse

Remember me as a dreamer.
Apr 2, 2025
69
Only if I could have non-human features like big triangle ears, fangs, a tail, etc.
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Paragon
Nov 25, 2024
956
I'm pretty much okay with my body, I mean it's not ideal after having been sick and losing muscles, and I tend to think I'm fat, but it is not part of the reason for being suicidal. I won't want to modify it, a six-pack would be nice but as long as I'm kind of skinny it's okay.
 
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Carrot

Carrot

Specialist
Feb 25, 2025
301
Yes. I look pretty good from what I've noticed, take care of myself really well (visually, apperance), but I have a few objectively bad genetic flaws that I hate and surgeries weren't able to fix that.

It's not the only thing, but it would greatly improve my life.
 
JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:4rp14
Dec 5, 2024
739
I don't dislike my appearance. That's not my reason for ctb. I consider myself 'normal', neither pretty nor ugly, just one of the crowd.

Just for vanity I would make myself a very small 'anime style' nose lol
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The one who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
234
tbh I think I'll probably become more suicidal if I had the power to become super hot.

But then I'll feel like shit if I was ugly sooooo guess I can't win. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
 
x3la

x3la

Member
Feb 8, 2025
32
No. There are so many things i wish i could change about the way i look, so it would go a long way in making me step away from the proverbial bus stop.
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
588
Hmm well tbh no

If i did looked "pretty" my brain would still be fucked up it wouldn't change the fact I wanna cbt
 
Misanthrope0000

Misanthrope0000

Misanthrope
Sep 8, 2024
87
Yeah, I may hate my body but that's not the main reason why I'm suicidal, it's my mental illness and my third world country that are the problem
 
moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
Do I get to change the way I think and see the world as well ? I'm empty , I don't want to feel so empty anymore. My reasons to leave go beyond the physical and have to do more with my lack of skill to live life. It is as if I had forgotten how to be an independent human being who fits in society.
 
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