if you are born poor, you will die poor. stop trying.

[notevenhere]

as someone with a plethora of mental illnesses, and chronic illnesses and nearing 30. it doesn't get better. it just gets worse. I have tried, over and over and over and failing, I even tried giving up over and over and every time, that produced more results. Give up now, while you have relief. Yesterday, night was the worst chronic pain in my life. April this year was the worst mental pain. Spare yourself the misery.

 

[khairan]

I hope you find some relief.

 

[beyond.space]

i want to underline that you should blame capitalism for this (being born and dying into poverty). not to get into politics, but this monstrosity of a system basically hates mentally ill people, because they are not seen as valuable as other workers. thats why we have to pay for therapists that most of the time advice us to get better, get a job, be productive in society. this should be about community and integration, not becoming a suitable slave. sure, jobs that you love can get you to have a purpose, but are those jobs accessible? do they pay good? well, most likely, no, because being a corpo slave benefits the capital better than pottery, lets say. everything has to be profitable, if its not, then its useless, even when people like it and need it.

now that my rant is over, ive also been completely destroyed in april. in my was my first botched attempt and now im planning my second one, and hopefully my last one. indeed, for me too, it has only gotten worse and worse since april, even though i tried and i tried and i fought to get better, go to therapy, go out, get a new job, make new friends. nothing worked, i lost two jobs, i feel more isolated and alienated then ever. i do not belong in this horrendous place.

 

[AstralMadness]

I was gonna say that very few poor people actually make it out of it and achieve good wealth but then I realized about the "very few" part and yeah nevermind

i want to underline that you should blame capitalism for this (being born and dying into poverty). not to get into politics, but this monstrosity of a system basically hates mentally ill people, because they are not seen as valuable as other workers. thats why we have to pay for therapists that most of the time advice us to get better, get a job, be productive in society. this should be about community and integration, not becoming a suitable slave. sure, jobs that you love can get you to have a purpose, but are those jobs accessible? do they pay good? well, most likely, no, because being a corpo slave benefits the capital better than pottery, lets say. everything has to be profitable, if its not, then its useless, even when people like it and need it.

now that my rant is over, ive also been completely destroyed in april. in my was my first botched attempt and now im planning my second one, and hopefully my last one. indeed, for me too, it has only gotten worse and worse since april, even though i tried and i tried and i fought to get better, go to therapy, go out, get a new job, make new friends. nothing worked, i lost two jobs, i feel more isolated and alienated then ever. i do not belong in this horrendous place.

honestly most of the issues in this world if not all are basically caused by capitalism, fuck capitalism

 

[beyond.space]

I was gonna say that very few poor people actually make it out of it and achieve good wealth but then I realized about the "very few" part and yeah nevermind


honestly most of the issues in this world if not all are basically caused by capitalism, fuck capitalism

oh definitely. i actually believe that i could have had a happy life were i not born in a shithole of a system run by oligarchs. the rich get richer and the poor get poorer, yay

 

[AstralMadness]

oh definitely. i actually believe that i could have had a happy life were i not born in a shithole of a system run by oligarchs. the rich get richer and the poor get poorer, yay

same here, i always think that most of my issues would be solved or way better if i lived comfortably at least but i'm broke and can't afford shit
funnily enough even after so many advancements in history and so many revolutions we're at a time where wealth disparity is at its peak lol, some edgelord ridiculously dumb motherfucker is about to be the first trillionaire and we can't do shit about it
well, not that i can personally but i'm sure that if we all organized and got to something it'd get better

 

[starboy2k]

when you die, you can't take any of that money with you. so yea everyone dies poor in a sense.

also…..mother-fuck this screwed up system and all the smoke and mirrors that comes with it.

 

[Unknown21]

Totally agree

 

[monetpompo]

capitalism can make otherwise healthy people want to kill themselves and it can make already mentally ill people feel shame for not being a machine. being poor or being dependent on your parents for most of your life will cripple you. getting a well paying job is a matter of luck. a lot of my friends in community college are struggling.

 

[unluckysadness]

as someone with a plethora of mental illnesses, and chronic illnesses and nearing 30. it doesn't get better. it just gets worse. I have tried, over and over and over and failing, I even tried giving up over and over and every time, that produced more results. Give up now, while you have relief. Yesterday, night was the worst chronic pain in my life. April this year was the worst mental pain. Spare yourself the misery.

I agree

 

[Hunter2005]

I agree now I'm stuck trying to figure out how to get the fuck outta here.

 

[notevenhere]

i want to underline that you should blame capitalism for this (being born and dying into poverty). not to get into politics, but this monstrosity of a system basically hates mentally ill people, because they are not seen as valuable as other workers. thats why we have to pay for therapists that most of the time advice us to get better, get a job, be productive in society. this should be about community and integration, not becoming a suitable slave. sure, jobs that you love can get you to have a purpose, but are those jobs accessible? do they pay good? well, most likely, no, because being a corpo slave benefits the capital better than pottery, lets say. everything has to be profitable, if its not, then its useless, even when people like it and need it.

now that my rant is over, ive also been completely destroyed in april. in my was my first botched attempt and now im planning my second one, and hopefully my last one. indeed, for me too, it has only gotten worse and worse since april, even though i tried and i tried and i fought to get better, go to therapy, go out, get a new job, make new friends. nothing worked, i lost two jobs, i feel more isolated and alienated then ever. i do not belong in this horrendous place.

couldn't have said it better myself i used to be a child with dreams i wanted to take literature i was a bright girl with stars in her eyes but i turned 18 and realized college costs money and i had so may physical disabilities my mom was hiding from me i am sickly and then my path to benzo addiction happened i kept never losing hope even with alcoholism. i checked myself to a psych ward and even then, even then, that's when i realize how truly evil it is to be in a government funded charity ward in a third world country, it makes you think "if you think your life outside is bad we'll make it worse for you here inside these metal gates caged like animals in your own feces and piss," stripped away of human rights because of poverty or mental illness but mostly both

i have talked to some people in that psych ward some were violent bipolars some where actually a 80 year old elderly with dementia schizophrenics who would steal our food and spit it at us and then there's also this schizoaffectice girl who would cuddle me to sleep and i absolutely hated it because i don't know where her hands went and her breath stank we didn't have access to dental hygiene

then there's attractive patients and they think it's okay to molest you by kissing you or holding you down until someone with a working brain screams stop, there would be actual fist fights — i had one tender moment though, it was this lesbian that can pass off as a really pretty tall pretty boy and he pat my head — but that was like after we showered so she saw my body and it feeds into i need to be thin and pretty to even receive love at all, im sick of it all and i want to end it.