I wish god would give my life to a kid with cancer who wants to live

[32yroldloser]

or someone else who needs my organs or body parts or even life spirit to save their life. my life isn't fixable it's completely broken.

i'm just praying to god to show me a sign that my life is worth living and im trying my hardest not to off myself.

i'll try to give a few weeks but i know im just going to suffer more.

My life won't get better, ill wait these few weeks and my life will be the same misery slop or worse and then i'll just be another person that offed themselves the end.

question, can i sign up to be a donor and if i kill myself can my body be use to save people? I have a chronic condition that affects my body but i hope at least my death can mean something rather than a fat ugly loser killing themselvs that amounted to nothing.

 

[AltF4Mylife]

I wish the same

 

[indianachrome]

me too.. I wish I could get cancer right now

 

[itsgone2]

Someone I know, their husband died of a heart attack a few years ago. Completely unexpected. Good guy. I think, why him and not me? Take me, bring him back.

 

[depressed_kitten97]

Oh my god I thought I was the only one.

Every night before falling asleep, I « pray » to give my life to any sick kids.

I follow some accounts on social media of families with a sick kid. It breaks my heart how much they want to live.

I am physically fine and I want to die.

It doesn't make any sense.

 

[Nightfoot]

I think it's admirable that you are thinking of others, despite your suffering. As far as life having meaning, maybe it's just as simple as trying to be a good person and, as a result, a good example to others. Not everyone cares beyond the six inches in front of their own faces. As far as "fat, ugly loser who didn't amount to anything," those just opinions and not facts. None of us chose to be born, so why do we have the responsibility to amount to anything? I'm sure you've amounted to something to those who care about you. Life is hard, and those who have empathy for others surely amount to something, even if it doesn't feel that way.

 

[Jan1193]

When I was 16, I had a friend with cancer, and I've fall in love with him without telling him. Really, I never said it, but he knews, and his mother and sisters too. When I readed your post I remembered his sister who had cancer too and I forgot completely till now. I'm a f*kin trash bag, i feel like garbage because In this relapse of my untreated depression since my mother pass away, I even wanted to get cancer or something terminal, agressive and fast just to finally die. My favourite uncle passed away last year from cancer too. And I never trought about anyone like you did, wanting to donate my organs or something, just in my own grief like a crybaby as f*k. And meanwhile the time keeps passing with me alone, I feel less and less human than my youth or anytime I can remember

You're really, really a kind and wonderfull human being. I'm pretty sure you can find some way to sign about a donate. Arround the world are institutions and agreements in hospital for doing that or donate our bodies to science

 

[Off_Switch]

 

[32yroldloser]

When I was 16, I had a friend with cancer, and I've fall in love with him without telling him. Really, I never said it, but he knews, and his mother and sisters too. When I readed your post I remembered his sister who had cancer too and I forgot completely till now. I'm a f*kin trash bag, i feel like garbage because In this relapse of my untreated depression since my mother pass away, I even wanted to get cancer or something terminal, agressive and fast just to finally die. My favourite uncle passed away last year from cancer too. And I never trought about anyone like you did, wanting to donate my organs or something, just in my own grief like a crybaby as f*k. And meanwhile the time keeps passing with me alone, I feel less and less human than my youth or anytime I can remember

You're really, really a kind and wonderfull human being. I'm pretty sure you can find some way to sign about a donate. Arround the world are institutions and agreements in hospital for doing that or donate our bodies to science

Thanks for the kind words but please don't be too hard on yourself, it's ironic me saying that considering what i just said about myself but

If we all got judged for what we did or did not do at 16 i think it wouldnt be fair cause we dont have a lot of life experience until like 30s or 40s and even then we still learn id assume.

I think it's admirable that you are thinking of others, despite your suffering. As far as life having meaning, maybe it's just as simple as trying to be a good person and, as a result, a good example to others. Not everyone cares beyond the six inches in front of their own faces. As far as "fat, ugly loser who didn't amount to anything," those just opinions and not facts. None of us chose to be born, so why do we have the responsibility to amount to anything? I'm sure you've amounted to something to those who care about you. Life is hard, and those who have empathy for others surely amount to something, even if it doesn't feel that way.

Thanks for your kindness. it's just that i've never had any healthy relationships where i can trust someone because eventually my trust gets weaponized against me or when i don't agree with everything i get tossed to the side.

So rationally i know what i say about myself might be too harsh but i feel like it's true because my environment for most of my life has been telling me im worthless so maybe i am worthless.

 

[Jan1193]

Thanks for the kind words but please don't be too hard on yourself, it's ironic me saying that considering what i just said about myself but

If we all got judged for what we did or did not do at 16 i think it wouldnt be fair cause we dont have a lot of life experience until like 30s or 40s and even then we still learn id assume.

Thank you so much, really. I don't blame myself about my decisions in the 16's, or even years later. I even stop (most of the times) for not being with my mother when she passed away, thinking I'd would make a diference. the "I had" doesn't exist and I suposs that it just happens on the way that had to be. I blame myself sometimes for haven rotten so much now, in my 30's. It's a vicious cycle, not being able or not wanting to stand up every day. I barely have energy, I just want to dissapear.

I send you love and feel real peace, no matter what. Thank you again, hommie

 

[daruino]

Yes... when I think about how many people live in extreme poverty, are facing hunger, oppression, or war, I feel so guilty. I don't face these hardships but am doing nothing my life and still wish to die...

And from what I know, in my country at least, organ donation is only possible if the donor dies in the hospital (since there is medical equipment needed to keep giving oxygen to the blood, otherwise organs can't be used). Perhaps you could still donate tissues such as skin, or bones. I suggest researching the policy where you live, but organ donation will not be possible.

 

[KlixxFoxe]

I'm sorry that you experienced bad events in your lives, but God loves you as much as he loves a choke with cancer. So the best way to support them both is to keep living and fighting

 

[astonishedturnip]

I think of this all the time. The wrong people die, all the time. I'd much rather be the one dying instead of a child or a young parent with kids to take care of.

 

[TheHolySword]

I think I was brought into this world to suffer, so that others would suffer less. I think some people are born to live a life of pain, so that others don't have to. I hope my death brings better life to someone new.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

if i kill myself can my body be use to save people?

Depends on the method you choose. If you CTB by poisoning yourself, you can't; if you CTB by throwing yourself in the rails, your body will be destroyed; however, I'm not sure regards of electrocution, firearm or jumping. Does anyone know?

About the title of the thread, that's one the reasons I'm atheist - certainly there isn't a good god that allows people who wants to live, die, as well as the opposite. Personally, sometimes I think that, if there's any god, they're sadistic, finding pleasure on humans' suffering.

 

[ConstantPain]

I wish for this daily as well. There are so many people who love life and wish to live who end up dying young. Meanwhile I'm 48 and feel like I lived enough and it's all downhill from here. I'm the most depressed I've ever been and so badly wish I could die and spare someone else.

 

[android]

From the title, I was expecting something much worse.
Sick children break me.
I don't understand why people keep bringing children into this cruel world.

 

[like_a_bird]

or someone else who needs my organs or body parts or even life spirit to save their life. my life isn't fixable it's completely broken.

i'm just praying to god to show me a sign that my life is worth living and im trying my hardest not to off myself.

i'll try to give a few weeks but i know im just going to suffer more.

My life won't get better, ill wait these few weeks and my life will be the same misery slop or worse and then i'll just be another person that offed themselves the end.

question, can i sign up to be a donor and if i kill myself can my body be use to save people? I have a chronic condition that affects my body but i hope at least my death can mean something rather than a fat ugly loser killing themselvs that amounted to nothing.

I feel the same. Lost a friend who loved life to cancer a few months ago and would give anything to have been able to hand off my remaining years to her.

Regarding organ donation, because I've had the same thought and looked into it myself: it's unfortunately a LOT trickier than you would think and probably complicates things more than it's worth.

As another user noted, the method matters here. For something like an OD, organs would not be viable for transplant at all. You would need a method that both preserves their structure and does not contaminate them.

Additionally, organs are viable for only a VERY short time after circulation ceases. They would need to be either removed and chilled or perfused within about 30 minutes. For this to be achievable, you would basically have to ensure that your consent for harvesting is clear and unambiguous and that a hospital with a transplant team would have near immediate access to your body AND is anticipating you. Even if you did something like CTB in the hospital parking lot after calling them to let them know what you were doing, I can see so many ways that this might go wrong. The coroner might take precedence with autopsy over organ harvesting. Maybe your method isn't perfectly effective and you find yourself barely resuscitated and rotting away indefinitely in said hospital. Or, as is common even with planned harvesting in ideal conditions, it all simply fails and your organs go to waste anyway.

I admire your concern for others and for making meaning out of your life. You sound like a kind person. I'm sorry for whatever it is you are going through. Sometimes life just throws shit at you.

 

[Steve Vermont]

I hear you. I have often wished this, myself.

 

[Jumpingisnotacrime]

or someone else who needs my organs or body parts or even life spirit to save their life. my life isn't fixable it's completely broken.

i'm just praying to god to show me a sign that my life is worth living and im trying my hardest not to off myself.

i'll try to give a few weeks but i know im just going to suffer more.

My life won't get better, ill wait these few weeks and my life will be the same misery slop or worse and then i'll just be another person that offed themselves the end.

question, can i sign up to be a donor and if i kill myself can my body be use to save people? I have a chronic condition that affects my body but i hope at least my death can mean something rather than a fat ugly loser killing themselvs that amounted to nothing.

I feel like we also need to remember that we should never compare ourselves to others every time. I mention that I don't want to live I get hit with while there's people suffering with terminal illness and I understand that but life is not a who has it worst game.
I'm sorry that you feel this way

 

[looking4partner]

From the title, I was expecting something much worse.
Sick children break me.
I don't understand why people keep bringing children into this cruel world.

All of the comments say that she survived. It was bacterial meningitis and there are photos of her when she is older than this video. Just wanting to clarify for people who see it. I don't like when people post misinformation click bait titles that trick people. (This is referring to the YouTube poster, not the member who reposted the video here)

 

[dearlydeparted44]

That would be a sign of a truly loving, caring, and merciful god... if one existed.