I will CTB today. Goodbye.

[Kokonoe]

Most important person in my life for so long finally cut me off today. It has broken me. It feels so cruel. Recently I realized she has been abusing me for as long as I've known her and it's hurt so badly. I finally had the courage to bring it up. She finally decided to cut me off after that. It hurts so badly. I can't understand any of what she did. It all feels so cruel. I'll never understand it.
I knew this was going to happen but it still hurts just as bad as i feared. It honestly might hurt even worse than that. I can't handle it.
I'm currently lying in bed with the noose above me. I tested it. It should work. At least I hope it does. I gave myself a small taste of FSH, just stepped off and back onto the ladder to see what it feels like. It really, really fucking hurts. But not enough to stop me. I can't live with the hurt that she has cursed me with. I can't live knowing everything she did. I just can't do it. I have to die today. I'm so, so sorry.

Goodbye forever friends. I hope you all find peace.

 

[geepeedee]

goodbye and good luck.

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm sorry you've been through all this. I hope you find inner peace and relief.

 

[interna]

safe travels. i hope death is kinder to you than life was

 

[fishperson]

We are all here for you. Whatever u decide to do , I hope u get to find peace at the end.

 

[iveseenfootage]

Whatever happens, I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

I was in love once. She didn't reciprocate my feelings. It absolutely broke me and I don't think I'll be able to love again.

But this way years ago.. if I think about her I don't feel anything. No love, nothing.
I know its a cliche but with time it heals, or stings a little bit less, and less until it doesn't sting anymore.

Please give it time. You don't have to rush anything.
The bus can wait.. or rather it can go fuck off

 

[ilovenewyork]

I agree, maybe give it a day or two before taking action. I know it hurts

 

[Yaalya]

like abyss dweller sayd. give you time. pls dont impulsive ctb. this person betrayed you and u think there is no other options atm but ur life can change positive without this abusive person, but u need move forward to recognize how this change will affect ur life.

 

[Warum]

hey. the same thing happened to me.every morning it would be my first thought and every night my last, them. i know the sheer pain you are in. because of that, let some time pass. impulsively ending it is not a good idea. everyone has a choice but that choice should be thought about deeply and reflect upon ones life quality without any extrem recent biases. please do not ctb just now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[msds]

Most important person in my life for so long finally cut me off today. It has broken me. It feels so cruel. Recently I realized she has been abusing me for as long as I've known her and it's hurt so badly. I finally had the courage to bring it up. She finally decided to cut me off after that. It hurts so badly. I can't understand any of what she did. It all feels so cruel. I'll never understand it.

I know this feeling. It's happened to me several times. Finding out that your FP is just abusing you will never not be a shock. I'm so sorry you've had to go through it.

But, I also agree with Abyss Dweller, give it some time. I might be being a little hypocritical here since all in all, those past instances are why I am currently planning my attempt. But I don't think you should do something rash. If you still feel like attempting in a few days, then go for it.

Whatever you do, I hope you find peace.

 

[kovinskin]

I hope you find freedom from suffering.

Bruh you genuinely only contribute to potentially impulsive suicides

 

[fishperson]

Bruh you genuinely only contribute to potentially impulsive suicides

Pro choice website dweller when someone is pro choice

 

[eladeselasol99]

goodbye bro and fly high from the suffering

 

[Warum]

Pro suicide website dweller when someone is pro suicide

there is a big difference between pro suicide and pushing suicide. just because we are pro choice does not mean we approve of a thrown away life. people need to read the room sometimes!

 

[dewdfish]

I hope you find peace, Koko. It was nice having you around. See you on the other side soon

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Pro suicide website dweller when someone is pro suicide

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/dismantling-the-allegation-that-were-pro-suicide.157256/

 

[Cyc]

I hope you find peace <3

 

[bakenohana]

i hope you find peace

 

[Kokonoe]

she called an ambulance on me. im fucked. i dont want to live like this. why does she have to hurt me one more time.

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry for your situation,
however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[Deer_Dairy]

Dying because of someone is not good idea (if it is not dying to save someone).
It should always be resolution you made because of yourself, not influenced by any other person.
She betrayed you. It is sad, it hurts, it feel like the end of the world. But it is not.
If this is a reason for welcoming death, it is bad one.
Everyone can be replaced (only exception I can think of is member of family).
Yes, everyone.
There are plenty of reasons to ctb, but this is not the case.

 

[RootenTomato]

Screw that person... screw all of them. If they just walk out on you like that, if she was the most important person in your life, it means you were never that important to her. They're not worth it.