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Yep. Agreed. Always thought I was born with a role of being a background character.
This drawing makes me think about the movie "Harold & Maude". You may like the character if you don't know the movie.
I feel you. Logically I know that talented people who suffer are just as miserable as me, if not more, but this need to be better exists in every human, I guess.
I'm probably autistic too (neurodivergent for sure). I made a poll last year about it and A LOT of people here are autistic (not surprising as we know that autistic people are more depressed and higher risks of suicide)
sanctioned-suicide.net
Natural selection hasn't disappeared. No matter how much copium of "everyone matters" we all take. In reality, people like us suffer more just because we are this way...I'm probably autistic too (neurodivergent for sure). I made a poll last year about it and A LOT of people here are autistic (not surprising as we know that autistic people are more depressed and higher risks of suicide)
Are you autistic ? (poll)
I see a lot of posts of people telling they have autism. We know that suicide rate is sadly higher for people with autism. I have 90% autistic traits but not diagnosed as the tests are different according to countries. But I'm neurodivergent for sure (my psychiatrist agree). Thanks for your answer 🙏
I used to think I was a special case before I actually got my first phone and realized there are hundreds of "mes" out there living the same lives, and I've never put anything into this world even slightly substantial; I'm not special. I really like your art tho this is great, It's better than mine and I go to art school
Literally me. Also genuinely thank you. I'm not better, I'm just trained in drawing only several things.I used to think I was a special case before I actually got my first phone and realized there are hundreds of "mes" out there living the same lives, and I've never put anything into this world even slightly substantial; I'm not special. I really like your art tho this is great, It's better than mine and I go to art school
Oh God I wanted to try writing too but I have trauma from my mom laughing at my description of a hairstyle of a man. Like, i had a task to describe a portrait and oh god was it horrible.
also "someone who considers themselves a writer" is such a real way to phrase it. I can't even call myself an artist...I feel you. Literally me
Oh God I wanted to try writing too but I have trauma from my mom laughing at my description of a hairstyle of a man. Like, i had a task to describe a portrait and oh god was it horrible.
I wish I could say something encouraging, but the truth is most of as all are basic boring mid people
I'm sorry that happened. Parents sometimes say shit and have no idea how it influences their kids. I think delusion is part of our nature. All people think they're main characters. Otherwise we'd just go insane.
I'm curious, what do you hope to get out of being special? Do you want like external validation or do you feel like you need to prove yourself to feel like you have a right to existence for example? I feel like many people have this desire but I struggle to formulate for myself what I'd actually get out of it.
That's a great question and the answer is I don't know. I'd like validation, being better than others, stuff like that. Maybe I'm just a narcissist, that's also a thing I consider. But mostly I think that most of humans strive to be better because we're wired to.
Idk how relatable it is but for me with low self-esteem, I felt like I had to do/be something "extra" to deserve my place in life, whereas others for me are good enough whatever they are like. I dont think I'll ever achieve self-acceptance but I do hypothesize that if I achieved that, such desires to be special would go away for me. There's probably a lot of reasons why people want it though, like those you mentioned
