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narasаnu

narasаnu

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Sep 24, 2023
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So, I diluted the SN in a 2:1 ratio: 40 ml of water and 20 grams of SN. I stood there for a while, debating whether I should do this, and then decided to drink it all in one gulp and see what happens. I took three big gulps (well, not that much) before I immediately felt sick and nauseous. Luckily, when I ran to the prepared bucket, I was able to stand and didn't throw up. Now I've been lying on my bed for 20-30 minutes, hoping I'll feel some changes, but I've had nothing but a headache and stomach ache.

I drank roughly 1/4 or 1/3 of the glass—I'd love to check for sure, but I poured it out immediately and washed the glass so as not to accidentally poison anyone else. In grams, well (I hope) about 2-3.

P.S. I understand I did almost everything wrong (took 2 Analgin and 2 Cerucal, without waiting to much, last meal I had was like just 14 hours ago? and I've drink few cups of water before SN), that was terrible and I'm not sure if that's my way to CTB.
 
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ZeroRedz02

ZeroRedz02

Waiting GTA 6 constantly but my choice is to leave
May 21, 2026
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So, I diluted the SN in a 2:1 ratio: 40 ml of water and 20 grams of SN. I stood there for a while, debating whether I should do this, and then decided to drink it all in one gulp and see what happens. I took three big gulps (well, not that much) before I immediately felt sick and nauseous. Luckily, when I ran to the prepared bucket, I was able to stand and didn't throw up. Now I've been lying on my bed for 20-30 minutes, hoping I'll feel some changes, but I've had nothing but a headache and stomach ache.

I drank roughly 1/4 or 1/3 of the glass—I'd love to check for sure, but I poured it out immediately and washed the glass so as not to accidentally poison anyone else. In grams, well (I hope) about 2-3.

P.S. I understand I did almost everything wrong (took 2 Analgin and 2 Cerucal, without waiting to much, last meal I had was like just 14 hours ago? and I've drink few cups of water before SN), that was terrible and I'm not sure if that's my way to CTB.
Should noticing that Vizzy's thread about nitrogen inert gas CTB points out that **Oxygen** should be lower to 1%, which SN shares both chemical properties (Oxygen and Nitrogen) now i will expect to suffer in pain while dying of SN if THAT is the case because if it already has oxygen and we [literally] breath oxygen and nitrogen is even there WITH (Oxygen needed to be 1%) i will then in example die in a painful way.
I mean we don't know but it seems to be simple logic..
 
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oilsaniok

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May 19, 2026
20
how about the SN purity? kinda concerning anyone can explain?
 
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inpainnosleep

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Apr 11, 2026
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So, I diluted the SN in a 2:1 ratio: 40 ml of water and 20 grams of SN. I stood there for a while, debating whether I should do this, and then decided to drink it all in one gulp and see what happens. I took three big gulps (well, not that much) before I immediately felt sick and nauseous. Luckily, when I ran to the prepared bucket, I was able to stand and didn't throw up. Now I've been lying on my bed for 20-30 minutes, hoping I'll feel some changes, but I've had nothing but a headache and stomach ache.

I drank roughly 1/4 or 1/3 of the glass—I'd love to check for sure, but I poured it out immediately and washed the glass so as not to accidentally poison anyone else. In grams, well (I hope) about 2-3.

P.S. I understand I did almost everything wrong (took 2 Analgin and 2 Cerucal, without waiting to much, last meal I had was like just 14 hours ago? and I've drink few cups of water before SN), that was terrible and I'm not sure if that's my way to CTB.
How are you feeling now? I speak Russian as well, wish I never moved :(
 
Aknu132

Aknu132

Tenha um bom dia!
Dec 25, 2023
320
Lethal dose is approximately 2.6g. There's a chance he/she is dead.
 
narasаnu

narasаnu

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Sep 24, 2023
23
Guys, I want to reassure you, I'm fine. I don't know how my body handled it all. Probably 1-2 hours after my post, my headache went away and (I'm sorry) severe diarr#ea started. Although I was hoping it would be a lethal dose, I feel much better now, and there are no obvious symptoms. The only thing that remains is a salty taste in my mouth.

But! I'm even somewhat glad that I overcame my fear, and if I repeat this in the future, it will be more successful.

Now I'm wondering if a smaller dose, say like 5-10g, would work? Since it's smaller, I need to dilute it with less water, so theoretically, I could drink much more in a shorter amount of time than last time. Also, does it make a difference if I completely mix the SN in water (until the sediment disappears and the liquid in the glass is translucent)?
 
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FiryPheonix

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Mar 7, 2026
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Guys, I want to reassure you, I'm fine. I don't know how my body handled it all. Probably 1-2 hours after my post, my headache went away and (I'm sorry) severe diarr#ea started. Although I was hoping it would be a lethal dose, I feel much better now, and there are no obvious symptoms. The only thing that remains is a salty taste in my mouth.

But! I'm even somewhat glad that I overcame my fear, and if I repeat this in the future, it will be more successful.

Now I'm wondering if a smaller dose, say like 5-10g, would work? Since it's smaller, I need to dilute it with less water, so theoretically, I could drink much more in a shorter amount of time than last time. Also, does it make a difference if I completely mix the SN in water (until the sediment disappears and the liquid in the glass is translucent)?
This is very interesting, is your SN <95% ?
 
narasаnu

narasаnu

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Sep 24, 2023
23
This is very interesting, is your SN <95% ?
I think so, the package didn't say SN purity, but I THOUGHT that it was clearly more than 95%.
How did you survive this?
I have no idea, well, either it was sodium nitrate, or the purity was low, but I'm more inclined to the first, otherwise I would already be dead.
 
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babyneo1

Student
Apr 23, 2026
155
Where did you get your SN? And you couldn't one shot drink the solution? It's that disgusting?;

Will you attempt again?
 
FiryPheonix

FiryPheonix

Member
Mar 7, 2026
33
I think so, the package didn't say SN purity, but I THOUGHT that it was clearly more than 95%.

I have no idea, well, either it was sodium nitrate, or the purity was low, but I'm more inclined to the first, otherwise I would already be dead.
Yeah either you're a superhuman or something's wrong with your mixture
 
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narasаnu

narasаnu

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Sep 24, 2023
23
Where did you get your SN? And you couldn't one shot drink the solution? It's that disgusting?;

Will you attempt again?
Off OZON (aka one of Russian Marketplaces) This is not the best option, since there is almost nothing there that you could harm yourself with.

And yes, it was terrible, about the same as mixing salt and water in the same quantities, only 5 times worse, plus after the first sip you feel like vomiting, and it's hard to drink the whole glass at once.

Will I try it again in the future? Most likely, but this time I'd rather wait a little longer and order from a reputable store.
Yeah either you're a superhuman or something's wrong with your mixture
Haha, most likely the second one, since I am pretty sure I'd be dead already
 
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babyneo1

Student
Apr 23, 2026
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Off OZON (aka one of Russian Marketplaces) This is not the best option, since there is almost nothing there that you could harm yourself with.

And yes, it was terrible, about the same as mixing salt and water in the same quantities, only 5 times worse, plus after the first sip you feel like vomiting, and it's hard to drink the whole glass at once.

Will I try it again in the future? Most likely, but this time I'd rather wait a little longer and order from a reputable store.

Haha, most likely the second one, since I am pretty sure I'd be dead already
So you think SN wasn't 95%+ purity?
Off OZON (aka one of Russian Marketplaces) This is not the best option, since there is almost nothing there that you could harm yourself with.

And yes, it was terrible, about the same as mixing salt and water in the same quantities, only 5 times worse, plus after the first sip you feel like vomiting, and it's hard to drink the whole glass at once.

Will I try it again in the future? Most likely, but this time I'd rather wait a little longer and order from a reputable store.

Haha, most likely the second one, since I am pretty sure I'd be dead already
Any tips you think can give to drink it in one go? And how will you approach different next time
 
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oilsaniok

Member
May 19, 2026
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Off OZON (aka one of Russian Marketplaces) This is not the best option, since there is almost nothing there that you could harm yourself with.

And yes, it was terrible, about the same as mixing salt and water in the same quantities, only 5 times worse, plus after the first sip you feel like vomiting, and it's hard to drink the whole glass at once.

Will I try it again in the future? Most likely, but this time I'd rather wait a little longer and order from a reputable store.

Haha, most likely the second one, since I am pretty sure I'd be dead already
is the colour like yellowish too? did it say technical grade or nah? afraid mine same as yours
 
FiryPheonix

FiryPheonix

Member
Mar 7, 2026
33
Should noticing that Vizzy's thread about nitrogen inert gas CTB points out that **Oxygen** should be lower to 1%, which SN shares both chemical properties (Oxygen and Nitrogen) now i will expect to suffer in pain while dying of SN if THAT is the case because if it already has oxygen and we [literally] breath oxygen and nitrogen is even there WITH (Oxygen needed to be 1%) i will then in example die in a painful way.
I mean we don't know but it seems to be simple logic..
Crushed benzos timed appropriately should help a lot
 
broken serenity

broken serenity

Student
Sep 26, 2025
133
i read the title and was like "usually die, anyways?"

damn maybe it was like labeled SN because it was SN but cooking SN actually you know? Maybe the seller didn't even know? For food like bacon it's i think 6% ish. It sounds like you just got a lower concentration. Did you notice changes in skin color? idr exactly but one person who took too little dose noticed skin change for a time before they got it out of their system.
 
lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
293
i read the title and was like "usually die, anyways?"

damn maybe it was like labeled SN because it was SN but cooking SN actually you know? Maybe the seller didn't even know? For food like bacon it's i think 6% ish. It sounds like you just got a lower concentration. Did you notice changes in skin color? idr exactly but one person who took too little dose noticed skin change for a time before they got it out of their system.
Could be that. I cant find anything pure there on OZON - I wanted to know because it's weird to drink that much and be OK.
Once real SN is taken (even if it's a few sips) it's either the ER or last moments in this world.
 
Fadenself00_

Fadenself00_

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Sep 21, 2025
362
Was it 1. pure? 2. Not meat curing salt (normally has only a few % of SN at most)?, and 3. not nitrate but *nitrite*?
 
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SDB

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Jul 21, 2025
316
Make sure is Nitrite not Nitrate, you said Nitrate above, thats not the correct product
 
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isthisthingon

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May 16, 2026
357
Seems like it was not a high grade of SN. That's what all the information points too.
 

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