I lost my goal. Horse sold for a meat price.

[Red.one]

Hi!
I'm depressed as hell. I lost my job as horse riding instructor a month ago "just becose". Boss's wife hated me without a reason (I think the reason was my punkish appearance, being different and there was the fack that "I'm always ill" (I don't know if being sick like 3 times a ywas when you work in rain and mud and with kids "always").

For some twisted reason they ended up with a 3 year old horse, with behavioral problems. She's dangerous, she almost sent my knee to hell. She hates man and has visible scars on her shoulder and hinds.

I wanted to buy her. For some reason she decided to trust me, she was walking after me like a dog. And despite my fear I want to get her to the point of "I'm not going to be a meat at 5 you".

I was looking for a place to took her too. Not too far, not too expensive. I was late. Somebody bouth her.

She was the cor of my plans. Plans to get up from depression. I love her. I gave her a name. She was my reason to go on and I was late..

I'm a fool. A kid that "wants a pony". I had a possibility to put her in a place out of my price range for a month or two.
And now she's gone.

I don't know what to do. I need to find a new goal. But I know that it's easier to just lay down with my friend depression. I want to go to sleep and wake up when it's all over. I want to live my dreams not nightmares.

 

[calebzz1]

Damn, I'm sorry to hear that.

I couldn't imagine being super attached to an animal only to lose out on caring for them in the end.

Did the person buy her used to be used as meat?

That's really disturbing.

Can you reach out to whoever bought her somehow?

 

[SASU-KE]

I can understand the agony of what you're going through. I second the above post. If you can, please reach out to that person and plead with them to let the horse live?

Some people will listen to you and change their minds.