Today I was at a birthday party. One of my closest friends is still friends with two former friends of mine that I ghosted. One of them was at the party.
He is quite successful in his job. And he is really unempathetic. I met him today and I had a hard time hiding how much I dislike to see him.
First, it was awkward. But after the beginning he approached me and asked me actually what are you doing. The truth is college made me really suicidal and I don't plan to go back. Actually, I also cannot work. But technically I am still enrolled in college. So I told him that. Most of my friends struggle with college and work. And my good friends don't brag when they successfully made it. I think he considered me a loser because he told me I graduated from college 7 years ago. What should I tell him in a couple of years? And for the dating market it is also horrible. Personally, I hope that unemployment will be less stigmatized when AI takes over. Lol.
The birthday party was good but I had to travel a long time to meet my friends. This was stressful. I enjoy writing my closest friends birthday cards. I am not sure how many I actually wrote thus far. But I started this when I had the feeling my suicide time is close. And actually I almost killed myself 2024. But I kept writing those birthday cards. And my friends really enjoy them. Often I mix funny humor with honest words of love and appreciation. I knew there were some people invited where I didn*t feel comfortable to write something personal. So this time it was more of a fun card. My jokes are often edgy. I said something like that I am not responsible for what is writen in the card and blamed it on chatGPT that generated this card. Then I made some edgy jokes about Israel in Germany that is a sensitive issue (but honestly I just dropped some truth bombs) and at the end of the card I pretended that the author of the card was someone else. Actually, a friend that ghosted us a long time and we have the insider he is always guest to our parties. Though, sadly he is invisible.
He is quite successful in his job. And he is really unempathetic. I met him today and I had a hard time hiding how much I dislike to see him.
First, it was awkward. But after the beginning he approached me and asked me actually what are you doing. The truth is college made me really suicidal and I don't plan to go back. Actually, I also cannot work. But technically I am still enrolled in college. So I told him that. Most of my friends struggle with college and work. And my good friends don't brag when they successfully made it. I think he considered me a loser because he told me I graduated from college 7 years ago. What should I tell him in a couple of years? And for the dating market it is also horrible. Personally, I hope that unemployment will be less stigmatized when AI takes over. Lol.
The birthday party was good but I had to travel a long time to meet my friends. This was stressful. I enjoy writing my closest friends birthday cards. I am not sure how many I actually wrote thus far. But I started this when I had the feeling my suicide time is close. And actually I almost killed myself 2024. But I kept writing those birthday cards. And my friends really enjoy them. Often I mix funny humor with honest words of love and appreciation. I knew there were some people invited where I didn*t feel comfortable to write something personal. So this time it was more of a fun card. My jokes are often edgy. I said something like that I am not responsible for what is writen in the card and blamed it on chatGPT that generated this card. Then I made some edgy jokes about Israel in Germany that is a sensitive issue (but honestly I just dropped some truth bombs) and at the end of the card I pretended that the author of the card was someone else. Actually, a friend that ghosted us a long time and we have the insider he is always guest to our parties. Though, sadly he is invisible.
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