Venting I get so upset when people want to ctb over love

[cvury]

To me... saying you want to kill yourself just because you never had sex or kissed a girl at 19 is way worse than wanting to kill yourself because your relationship is falling apart, and the only person who loved you is leaving. Being a "kissless virgin" shouldn't be the sole reason you want to commit suicide.

You don't know what it's like to have no one, to go to sleep alone with no one to hold at night. Alone with nothing. I cry and nobody cares. I just want a girlfriend to care and love me. I missed the prime of my life, i never got a gf in high school now my life is over since idk where to even meet people. It's so hard.

why do these posts seem like a competition about who's suffering the most, who's grieving the most
anyone can ctb, anyone can have suicide fantasies and depression because we're all different, we all have different experiences and no one, absolutely no one really knows what we go through day by day. so instead of getting angry at other suicidal people and comparing your situation and explaining why your situation is worse, maybe you should understand that their pain is valid and they're masking something deeper, maybe they broke up from an abusive relationship, maybe their partner was all they had in life, maybe they don't feel happiness outside of their relationship, maybe it was the last straw in an already horrible life.

Yeah I was so mad when I posted this at the time, I wasn't thinking rationally.

 

[uchuunekoko]

I suppose it boils down to: "is it worse to have nothing in the first place, or to have everything (or something precious) and lose it?" In my experience, I wish I never had a romantic relationship in the first place. Until that point, I was acclimated enough with being lonely forever to where I could bare with it on a daily basis. The crushing pains of never experiencing love wasn't nearly as bad as going through heartbreak and trying to make it work again. The latter ends up breaking you down even further as a person.

Deep down I was always apathetic and inhuman, but I didn't "feel" it (or was aware of it) until I lost the only person that, I felt like, cared about me. It's that old tale of losing your innocence and having that veil of ignorance lifted, but I digress.

I never had any friends or close relationships until that one person. Of course it varies from person to person, but going through all of that has made me realize that, even if I had that love again, I would still be the same unhappy and apathetic person.

 

[sanctionedusage]

idk id rather have never been in a relationship than be with someone who dragged and stretched my emotions all around so i end up seeing them as so central to my world, that without them, i'd kill myself

at least without this kind of dependency or abuse, youd be killing yourself with a clear head and a concrete, sound reason. the people who die from love or betrayal don't even make any sense when they explain 'why,' but they're so deep in their pain that it doesn't matter.

theyre both ass. everything sucks. a breakup isn't the worst experience documented in the world, but your problems also sound completely spoiled and irrelevant to someone who's housebound and chronically ill and doesn't live off other people's validations. you shouldn't be feeling much other than pity or sorrow for the person who kills themself for such a "non problem," not anger.