how is everyone's day going? I'll respond to every reply.

[YunoAtsuko]

I wanna make someone's day better. Whoever needs it, feel free to vent, and I'll respond.

 

[AnxiousLife]

I feel depressed and empty. Also I'm thinking a lot about how my parents horrible behaviour lead to my AVPD and other issues, which make it extremely difficult for me, to form and sustain relationships

 

[YunoAtsuko]

I feel depressed and empty. Also I'm thinking a lot about how my parents horrible behaviour lead to my AVPD and other issues, which make it extremely difficult for me, to form and sustain relationships

Wow, what's AVPD? Sorry, I've never heard of that!

 

[Zaphkiel]

Avoidant personality disorder is marked by poor self-esteem and an intense fear of rejection. People with the condition often avoid social situations to avoid these feelings. Avoidant personality disorder is treatable with psychotherapy (talk therapy). Medication may help as well.

What a search led to

 

[egegeg444]

As always, nothing interesting, every day is the same and empty. I don't know how long I can endure all this.

 

[lifeisadream]

Miserable. Saw psychiatrist today, 4th different one & had to yet again do a brain dump of all my MH issues. Same questions asked, same information given. When I started the "get help" process again I was verging on optimism but that's all drained away. I needed help not another storytelling my life to someone new.

 

[YunoAtsuko]

As always, nothing interesting, every day is the same and empty. I don't know how long I can endure all this.

Understandable. I wish I could help, I just don't want to be a hypocrite. I feel the same way.

Miserable. Saw psychiatrist today, 4th different one & had to yet again do a brain dump of all my MH issues. Same questions asked, same information given. When I started the "get help" process again I was verging on optimism but that's all drained away. I needed help not another storytelling my life to someone new.

Yeah, I get that. My psychiatrist basically just ruined my life by telling my grandma that I can't move in with my boyfriend until I'm more emotionally stable yesterday. They suck, I feel like they don't actually care. lol

 

[FadeAway00]

Crushing apathy and boredom. I haven't been on this site for a long time but I've been drawn back here after a tough weekend. It wasn't even that bad I'm not sure why depression has taken me badly the past few days. I'm totally alone and don't feel like I belong in this world. Thank you for starting this thread xx

 

[Forveleth]

I get to do coding today instead of hands-on work which means sitting at my desk with youtube and snax!

 

[E4syW3y0u7]

down 2 beers and a some whisky shots, gulp some Xanax and Vicodin Max Payne style, trying to make the day go fast=passing out, so pathetic i have to rp fictionnal characters ^^ hope yours is alright

 

[darksouls]

I feel like in prison, I am trapped in this disabled body and in my fortress of loneliness

 

[YunoAtsuko]

Crushing apathy and boredom. I haven't been on this site for a long time but I've been drawn back here after a tough weekend. It wasn't even that bad I'm not sure why depression has taken me badly the past few days. I'm totally alone and don't feel like I belong in this world. Thank you for starting this thread xx

No problem, friend. If you feel alone maybe we could chat, I'd love to help. ^^

I feel like in prison, I am trapped in this disabled body and in my fortress of loneliness

That's valid. If I can do anything to help let me know. You are valid, your feelings are real, your struggles are real. I know how you feel.

down 2 beers and a some whisky shots, gulp some Xanax and Vicodin Max Payne style, trying to make the day go fast=passing out, so pathetic i have to rp fictionnal characters ^^ hope yours is alright

Mine is okay. I just found out my best friend is hanging out with my ex abuser behind my back.

I get to do coding today instead of hands-on work which means sitting at my desk with youtube and snax!

That's actually not too bad!! Lucky you. I would love to learn how to code!

 

[lifeisadream]

I do like posts where people are so kind, caring & understanding so thank you OP. Sorry your psychiatrist is meddling in your life & hopefully you can overturn their decision.

 

[groovygoober]

hopeless and empty , feels like there are no sources of joy . head feels scrambled.

 

[YunoAtsuko]

hopeless and empty , feels like there are no sources of joy . head feels scrambled.

like a cotton ball in your head?? I know exactly how you feel!!!

 

[VanillaCake]

like a cotton ball in your head?? I know exactly how you feel!!!

How about you? How are you feeling today?
Thank you so much for what you do, as someone else here mentioned it is very kind of you

 

[YunoAtsuko]

How about you? How are you feeling today?
Thank you so much for what you do, as someone else here mentioned it is very kind of you

i feel horrible and i don't want to be here. living is a burden and i'd be much happier without this prison of a body.
no problem, i care about the wellbeing of others.

 

[GT Darkarage]

Well I'm looking videos to distract my mind.

Yesterday got two calls for two jobs from a few weeks ago.

Today I got another call from a call center to apply to an academy. It was 500$ and nope. I cannot assume that cost if I don't finish the classes.

 

[VanillaCake]

i feel horrible and i don't want to be here. living is a burden and i'd be much happier without this prison of a body.
no problem, i care about the wellbeing of others.

I'm really sorry to hear about this...

Does your best friend know about your ex-abuser? If so, can they avoid doing that altogether for your own sake (who would want to hang out with an abuser anyway)?

You mentioned a boyfriend, is it really out of the question for you to go living with him? Maybe you could argue to your psychiatrist that it'd help you feel safer (and thus more emotionally stable) to do so? In any case, I hope this suffering is only temporary and that you'll get what you need

 

[YunoAtsuko]

Well I'm looking videos to distract my mind.

Yesterday got two calls for two jobs from a few weeks ago.

Today I got another call from a call center to apply to an academy. It was 500$ and nope. I cannot assume that cost if I don't finish the classes.

I need to find a new job ASAP this one I'm working at is driving me nuts.
I'm a hostess at a VERY busy small owned business.

I'm really sorry to hear about this...

Does your best friend know about your ex-abuser? If so, can they avoid doing that altogether for your own sake (who would want to hang out with an abuser anyway)?

You mentioned a boyfriend, is it really out of the question for you to go living with him? Maybe you could argue to your psychiatrist that it'd help you feel safer (and thus more emotionally stable) to do so? In any case, I hope this suffering is only temporary and that you'll get what you need

I appreciate your concern,
like a sad piece of raw chicken I choose to marinate in my own suffering instead of trying to better myself.
does that make sense? lol

 

[Dark Moon]

My life is pretty boring and it's the same as usual nothing interesting. I'm isolated and lonely, plus I'm stuck and can't kill myself easily.

 

[YunoAtsuko]

My life is pretty boring and it's the same as usual nothing interesting. I'm isolated and lonely, plus I'm stuck and can't kill myself easily.

I feel that. I'm a grown ass adult and I'm not even allowed to leave the house for anything besides work.

 

[VanillaCake]

I appreciate your concern,
like a sad piece of raw chicken I choose to marinate in my own suffering instead of trying to better myself.
does that make sense? lol

It does make a lot of sense, I'm kind of the same tbh (as in, I'm not really sure I want to get better?). I guess that we're simply trying our best with what we have and that people shouldn't hold it against us. More compassion is needed in the world I feel

 

[YunoAtsuko]

It does make a lot of sense, I'm kind of the same tbh (as in, I'm not really sure I want to get better?). I guess that we're simply trying our best with what we have and that people shouldn't hold it against us. More compassion is needed in the world I feel

I agree. Especially for us sad pieces of chicken. People won't just let us die, they don't understand.

 

[SequelarDecline]

I feel pretty lobotomized from sleep deprivation and other issues, though I did want to make a post here earlier I don't know if it'd go through cuz of the minimum-post rule. Gotta wake up in 3 hours.. idk if it's just me but even though sleeping forever sounds nice it'd also be nice to never have to sleep again as long as I'm around? Besides that I guess I'm just extremely tired as usual.. no breaks to be found though

 

[FadeAway00]

i feel horrible and i don't want to be here. living is a burden and i'd be much happier without this prison of a body.
no problem, i care about the wellbeing of others.

I feel this to my core. I also find it interesting that people who suffer most care most about others if that makes sense. Why can't we afford ourselves the same care?

 

[urgent]

I'm in so much unbearable pain. I need to ctb asap I wish I had a way to go now I'm in New York and see fentanyl deaths are reported everyday trying to figure that out

 

[ih34rty0u]

i had a mental breakdown this morning cause i found out i got a bad grade in a test ive studied weeks for. if im so lonely and left out by the society why cant i at least do education right?

im so tired, i have 5 exams next week and i feel like im not doing enough. im also hungry af but i can't stand my body therefore i wont allow myself to eat more. i wish i was dead already, everything is so exhausting.

 

[DeathfulEnd]

hopelessly miserable like every other day before.

 

[ihatemealot]

I wanna make someone's day better. Whoever needs it, feel free to vent, and I'll respond.

Bad I get home and feel bad I was in hossbel all day bad nite ever