how is everyone's day going? I'll respond to every reply.

[gardenhouse]

Horrible as always

 

[X-sanguinate86]

Crappy. I had to venture out among the humans today and was disgusted with the usual petty backstabbing and obsession with status and hierarchy. It's obvious that most people's sense of wellbeing is based on feeling superior to someone else. I mean it's a luxury to be able to deny that cold reality and most people at once bathe in that luxury while jumping at every opportunity to feel good at someone else's expense. I don't know if things were always like this everywhere but that's the reality of the world today and for as long as I can remember. It makes me hate the world and the dirty hominids who live in it. I even catch people taking delight in my struggles because they just love to kick a weakling, I guess. They only care about feeling that they are valuable and that seems to depend on others being less valuable. How can anyone not be anti-social in a world like that? How can anyone wish for its continuation?

 

[YunoAtsuko]

I'm in so much unbearable pain. I need to ctb asap I wish I had a way to go now I'm in New York and see fentanyl deaths are reported everyday trying to figure that out

Understandable. If you need a friend I'm here for ya.

i had a mental breakdown this morning cause i found out i got a bad grade in a test ive studied weeks for. if im so lonely and left out by the society why cant i at least do education right?

im so tired, i have 5 exams next week and i feel like im not doing enough. im also hungry af but i can't stand my body therefore i wont allow myself to eat more. i wish i was dead already, everything is so exhausting.

I get that. I've gotten to the point where I don't care anymore, that everything is so bleak that I may as well enjoy my final days. That's why I don't restrict my eating anymore.

 

[YunoAtsuko]

I feel pretty lobotomized from sleep deprivation and other issues, though I did want to make a post here earlier I don't know if it'd go through cuz of the minimum-post rule. Gotta wake up in 3 hours.. idk if it's just me but even though sleeping forever sounds nice it'd also be nice to never have to sleep again as long as I'm around? Besides that I guess I'm just extremely tired as usual.. no breaks to be found though

I'm so tired as well. More so than the usual. Idk what's going on. But I can relate

hopelessly miserable like every other day before.

Yeah, I get that. It's like nothing really matters and nothing is ever going to help.

Horrible as always

Agreed. If you need a friend I'm here for you.

Crappy. I had to venture out among the humans today and was disgusted with the usual petty backstabbing and obsession with status and hierarchy. It's obvious that most people's sense of wellbeing is based on feeling superior to someone else. I mean it's a luxury to be able to deny that cold reality and most people at once bathe in that luxury while jumping at every opportunity to feel good at someone else's expense. I don't know if things were always like this everywhere but that's the reality of the world today and for as long as I can remember. It makes me hate the world and the dirty hominids who live in it. I even catch people taking delight in my struggles because they just love to kick a weakling, I guess. They only care about feeling that they are valuable and that seems to depend on others being less valuable. How can anyone not be anti-social in a world like that? How can anyone wish for its continuation?

I agree. This world sucks and it needs to come to an end.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

My day is actually going somewhat good. I don't have to work today and I've got my alcohol and snacks so that's a plus. Even on good days I still think about suicide a lot, but today not as much as some days.

 

[rllymiserable]

had a fight with someone which made my day start nervous af and super anxious, normal symptoms and paranoid like always, gave me comfort in some times, talked with my two long distance friends for about 4 hours, was distracted a bit but i get pulled back by my emotions about this person, the fight and everything related to that honestly
and ofc the feeling of loneliness misery and the fear of going completely insane

 

[YunoAtsuko]

My day is actually going somewhat good. I don't have to work today and I've got my alcohol and snacks so that's a plus. Even on good days I still think about suicide a lot, but today not as much as some days.

thats good to hear, i'm very glad.

had a fight with someone which made my day start nervous af and super anxious, normal symptoms and paranoid like always, gave me comfort in some times, talked with my two long distance friends for about 4 hours, was distracted a bit but i get pulled back by my emotions about this person, the fight and everything related to that honestly
and ofc the feeling of loneliness misery and the fear of going completely insane

I sometimes can't tell if I'm losing my mind in real time or not. So, that's a valid fear.