how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[darksouls]

my biological sister is just as much of a clinical sociopath as our mother, I hope I never have to see that insidious and deceitful cunt again in my life

 

[Ms. Salmonella]

I feel let down. My last hope, my last way out of this illness just vanished. I can't move and I can barely breathe. I'm left alone in this and it seems like nobody cares when you're really on the edge, when you can't talk no more and you can't fulfill even a morsel of their expectations. Every time I try to get better I fall into another black hole sooner or later. Mental and physical health are temporary and I'm tired of compensating my disabilities to be loveable, or creating the illusion for myself that I will ever be.

 

[Terrible_Life]

I feel ready to ctb

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I feel ready to ctb

Very close. I just can't do anything with the future in mind. I do the absolute minimum every day. I was waiting for my dad to return from a trip to deal with my body etc. He comes back tomorrow.

 

[Ktk]

In a puddle of my own tears, nothing really going well. Just so tired of it all, only living cuz I'm too much of a coward to end it. And having the smallest drop of hope that it'd work out eventually

 

[OzymandiAsh]

TRAPPED. I FEEL FUCKING TRAPPED!!!!!

 

[EmptyBottle]

I liked watching the show "Addiction" "Intervention", set in the mid 2000's for a bit, and (while initially meh about setting up the Christmas lights) liked how they looked.

Note: This involves food

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I feel like there ought to be more tasty stuff (snacks that miiiight not be the healthiest) in the house. Yes, the home made burgers with newly bought buns, mayo, some chilli sauce, and potentially even tomato sauce... were tasty, but I'm also interested in stuff like a candy cane (found after searching cupboard twice, there's in-between stuff like baked beans, stuff that needs to be combined to make a meal... like coconut cream. Also the pannetoni is supposed to be served in a group, etc).

 

[Hime]

I feel proud of myself. I managed to actually wake up early today for my appointment. Going to finally start MBT group therapy next week. Been waiting 2 years for this... I hope it was worth the struggle.

 

[darksouls]

society has treated me like a subhuman, that vile scum is a bunch of patetic failures

 

[EmptyBottle]

I liked watching the show "Addiction" "Intervention", set in the mid 2000's for a bit, and (while initially meh about setting up the Christmas lights) liked how they looked.

Note: This involves food

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I feel like there ought to be more tasty stuff (snacks that miiiight not be the healthiest) in the house. Yes, the home made burgers with newly bought buns, mayo, some chilli sauce, and potentially even tomato sauce... were tasty, but I'm also interested in stuff like a candy cane (found after searching cupboard twice, there's in-between stuff like baked beans, stuff that needs to be combined to make a meal... like coconut cream. Also the pannetoni is supposed to be served in a group, etc).

Reply involves food:


Update, yay... got pudding (date and raisins, served with and without custard)!
On a side note, found and ate 2 salty seed crackers, not the tastiest, but tasty enough to eat one, then return some time later for another.

 

[jenny6391bubbles]

i feel like i'm too much and i feel overwhelmed at the same time. i feel like i don't fit in even though i do fit in with some people

 

[memotrow]

Went to a psychologist for the first time. I know it's not magic, but I don't feel any better, and my only friend still ignores me. I feel very lonely and sad.

 

[darksouls]

brain-damaged due to the sepsis and too many medications

 

[n0rth3rnSh0gun]

Overwhelmed, anxious and depressed...

 

[BlueLock]

I feel like my life is doomed to be miserable. I don't think I'm even being irrational saying that I tried to kill myself at 11 and it's only gotten worse since then. I want to die so badly but I'm too scared/hesitant/something. I don't even know. I don't know why I'm still doing this knowing I can get unbearably miserable at the drop of a hat. And I'm just not the type of person who has ambition or drive or stability or patience or anything that actually fucking matters to succeed/function at life. I think i'm better off dead but I can't commit to it. I wanna blow my existence up self harm isn't enough I wish I could destroy myself if I could beat myself up right now.

 

[memotrow]

I feel an emptiness in my chest, I don't want to go back home, I just want to disappear and go somewhere better.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Feels slightly annoying to have to resubmit, re-edit, etc posts on a forum running SimpleMachineForums 2.0.19 or so because of embed glitches, tho this usually doesn't happen. Other than that, the day is going reasonably well.

 

[Pluto]

 

[tiltedcompass]

Sleepy, tired and worthless. My meds got changed and now I feel as if I'm going to fall asleep at any moment.
Worthless because I realized how much the people around me changed. My family, friends have jobs, are studying and or improved at something I consider myself good at. I feel happy for them but at the same time I can't help but think "why not me?". I'm aware that it's my fault and that I shouldn't be this lazy but still.

 

[uzl lover]

Absolute shit

 

[ilovenewyork]

So uncomfortable. Like I'm slowly burning

 

[Lost Impact]

drowning, loneliness, feel stupid. can't do anything right. mind-crushing loneliness.

 

[EmptyBottle]

So uncomfortable. Like I'm slowly burning

In terms of temperature? If so, sometimes applying water to self, running a fan, opening a window (if temp is cooler outside, also remember to close if room temp gets cool enough, or outside temp becomes warmer) etc can help. There are also portable evap coolers which can be bought.

If it's caused by fever, maybe paracetamol (eg Tylenol/Panadol) or ibuprofen (eg Nurofen) might help.

 

[tarnishedstoner]

Cold. Hopeless. Very hungry. I haven't been able to get off my bed for some time now. Just waiting for my stuff to arrive and will hopefully ctb when the Christmas break starts and my roommate leaves. My back and arms hurt from lying down for so long. I didn't think this is how it'd end but I guess it doesn't matter, i won't be here to see the aftermath anyway. I'll take a shower in some time, i couldn't shower yesterday. Hungry.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Cold. Hopeless. Very hungry. I haven't been able to get off my bed for some time now. Just waiting for my stuff to arrive and will hopefully ctb when the Christmas break starts and my roommate leaves. My back and arms hurt from lying down for so long. I didn't think this is how it'd end but I guess it doesn't matter, i won't be here to see the aftermath anyway. I'll take a shower in some time, i couldn't shower yesterday. Hungry.

maybe, if u wish, turn the dial on the radiator a little higher? (tbh, if the room is warmed by a radiator, changing temps can be slow vs heat pump, etc)

PS: Welcome to SaSu.

 

[tarnishedstoner]

So, so fucking alone. I am going to die alone. I have nothing. Im alone. Im going to die alone. Im literally going to fucking die by myself with nobody and nothing. Im going to die alone.

<3

Wow, I'm in the same condition. A few years ago i used to think about how the people in my life would react and if the people who i think wronged me would feel sorry or if they would laugh and mock me but now there's noone. It just feels very empty. It's like you removed a tumour and there's nothing there now. No pain, no fulfillment. Just emptiness. I still wish that someone would care but then I tell myself that it's selfish and my ego just wants to be remembered. Plus, it's not like I'm going to be here to see what happens.