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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
665
helium exit bag.
How confident are you that you will do it? Are you little bit afraid of the attempt? I ask because i also wanted to die many times now and every time something happened to stop me
 
Ladyybugged

Ladyybugged

𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒓 <3
Oct 21, 2025
63
How confident are you that you will do it? Are you little bit afraid of the attempt? I ask because i also wanted to die many times now and every time something happened to stop me
dont have a choice, so a 100%

afraid? no. remorseful? yes.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,147
I'm there but I don't have a method that will work. Gun or N would be over already. I don't have the willpower even to set up charcoal in a car. This is a bad situation. Might have to take guidance from the Dorothy Parker poem.
The extremes of anxiety seem to have passed. I'm still a ridiculous failure but I can't say I'm in enough pain to do anything impulsive. That said, I might be able to coolly arrange something like CO.
 
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nyotei_

nyotei_

poison tree
Oct 16, 2025
43
8.

Jeiv6n6w0qdd1
 
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Isolatedloser

Member
Dec 14, 2024
54
I'm not very likely to try at the moment. About a 5 today on the above scale. There has been times where it's been much higher recently but not today. It does make sense many here are much higher with an 8 or so.
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,111
Rn rn ? close. I wanna nust leave all this shit behind yet I dont have a plan. I need a painless way. Ik the majority are painful but I never seem to do it for my fear of death itself.

At least maybe I can write some letters before I go. Im not sure at all.
 
58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
definitely before the end of the year
partial hanging
 
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deathisapanacea

Student
Mar 10, 2025
188
I am as far away from it as I was 15 months back. I am so frustrated and angry with myself. I've been a procrastinator all my life and old habits die hard. My only hope is a lightning strike or a meteor landing on my head. Hanging, jumping and Train are all easily accessible where in live but I cannot imagine doing any of them. SN and paraphernalia are also gettable but I am scared of the consequences of botched SN attempt. All the methods I am thinking about seem far fetched.

1. visiting a gun infested country getting an illegal gun and offing myself
2. getting a fully functional Nitrogen asphyxiation kit made by a local mechanic/welder
3. Visiting Peru and getting Halatal from a SaSu famous middleman
 

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