Hi remember me? Unfortunately im not dead

[dust-in-the-wind]

I've been locked up in psych for about 6 weeks with no phone. Another failed attempt I don't want to talk about. I'm still as mentally ill as ever. maybe worse. I found a tree in the woods near my house today for fsh. That's my next endeavor. I am in so much mental pain it's unbearable.

 

[Dejected 55]

Wondered about you the other day as it has been a while since seeing you post in the kinds of threads you normally would post... Sorry to hear about your experience. It mirrors my own from late last year when I failed and wound up locked away without a phone for a while myself. You had about twice as long as I did though!

I haven't been able to figure out a viable alternate plan since I know my original planned method is a no-go. It's kind of frustrating even having to figure out another plan... but I get you from the standpoint of it being so much harder now than even it was previously.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

So sorry to hear. I have been wondering where you've been. I hope you get some peace soon in some form.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Been thinking about you, sending love, and truly sorry for all the pain and suffering

 

[A_Spartan_Dead]

Man that sucks, very sorry to hear you experienced more suffering.
It's a stupid system we live in; work 2-3 jobs and be homeless while carrying all the personal stuff we all have (pain, bad memories etc) and everything gets more expensive and you get no help, but don't ctb coz we'll put you in a ward.

 

[Forveleth]

Damn dude. Had not seen a post from you so I was hoping you finally found peace. I am sorry it is not so.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's nice (for us) to see you back here but I'm so sorry for where you're at.

 

[asthedayends00]

Damn they had ya for 6 weeks, that's terrible. Sometimes it's hard to convince them

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I've been locked up in psych for about 6 weeks with no phone. Another failed attempt I don't want to talk about. I'm still as mentally ill as ever. maybe worse. I found a tree in the woods near my house today for fsh. That's my next endeavor. I am in so much mental pain it's unbearable.

such an evil world where they can lock someone up for wanting to escape extreme torture ( i'm talking about me my case as the monsters would lock me up if i fail a suicide attempt for 6 weeks for me only wanting to escape extreme torture: i can't fathom how anyone would want to live in such an evil world where that kind of injustice torture and oppression is accepted. this is one thing that shows we are slaves and prisoners with no say even if we want to move away from extreme suffering , unbearable pain or escape extreme torture.

so they criminalize all guaranteed suicide methods like Nembutal , sarco pod , hiring someone to shoot me etc . then if you fall into a trap of unending constant excruciating unbearable pain you have no guaranteed painless way to move away from unbearable pain all because those monsters decided to make Nembutal a crime. then if you attempt with a brutal risky diy suicide method and fail then they lock you up for 6 weeks to suffer unbearable pain every second for 6 weeks : what kind of evil is this and everyone is ok with it : they say " go enjoy yourself nothing bad will ever happen:" i say bullshit horrible things beyond all imagination can happen to any human any day . i hate life and this world . i

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Wondered about you the other day as it has been a while since seeing you post in the kinds of threads you normally would post... Sorry to hear about your experience. It mirrors my own from late last year when I failed and wound up locked away without a phone for a while myself. You had about twice as long as I did though!

I haven't been able to figure out a viable alternate plan since I know my original planned method is a no-go. It's kind of frustrating even having to figure out another plan... but I get you from the standpoint of it being so much harder now than even it was previously.

It's a cold winter where I am. So if I can time it at night when no one can see me I figure I still have hypothermia as a backup plan while unconscious.

Damn they had ya for 6 weeks, that's terrible. Sometimes it's hard to convince them

They kept saying I was a danger to myself.

 

[itsgone2]

It's a cold winter where I am. So if I can time it at night when no one can see me I figure I still have hypothermia as a backup plan while unconscious

Oh wow cold here too I've never thought about this. But you're right

 

[Jisatsu]

I wish you luck in all of your endeavors hun

 

[Fall_Apart]

I've been thinking about you these past few months and wondering if you'd somehow found some sort of balance. I'm sorry to hear you've been struggling. We feel you.

 

[badatparties]

JEBUS H FUCK, another failed attempt. You said you were in your 50's right, you should be able to access Pegasos. But i know in your position, you're probably too depressed to even file the paperwork. Can your boyfriend help you?

I wish you peace, and fuck whoever created this planet.

 

[NegevChina]

Ive noticed your abcense and it just made this site sadder. Im sorry for what youve gone through and wish you a better or more successful year 2026.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

JEBUS H FUCK, another failed attempt. You said you were in your 50's right, you should be able to access Pegasos. But i know in your position, you're probably too depressed to even file the paperwork. Can your boyfriend help you?

I wish you peace, and fuck whoever created this planet.

I hear the waiting list is 2-3 years. Do you you know?

 

[Exhausted546]

I've been locked up in psych for about 6 weeks with no phone. Another failed attempt I don't want to talk about. I'm still as mentally ill as ever. maybe worse. I found a tree in the woods near my house today for fsh. That's my next endeavor. I am in so much mental pain it's unbearable.

24h was unbearable to me, I can't imagine 6 whole fkn weeks

 

[badatparties]

I hear the waiting list is 2-3 years. Do you you know?

No, it doesn't work that way. Most people get a VAD date set within like a month of their approval. Most people don't get approved, the vetting process is the bottleneck, not the calendar. No one is going to wait 3 years for a VAD.

Processing time for applications takes like two weeks, that's when they let you know if you're approved, and that 's when you set the VAD date.

 

[ipmanwc0]

I stayed there involuntarily for almost 4 months it's extremely torturous. still dream about being trapped there sometimes. that trauma alone would be enough to make me want to ctb

 

[Exhausted546]

I stayed there involuntarily for almost 4 months it's extremely torturous. still dream about being trapped there sometimes. that trauma alone would be enough to make me want to ctb

4 fucking months?! Was it a failed attempt that led you there? Were you caught? Snitched on?

I'm so thankful for my 24h stay. I'm rethinking ctb outside cause I couldn't afford being caught and sent there fore weeks, let alone months

 

[39hatsune]

im sorry about your situation and the way you are feeling, hope it only gets better from here

 

[fadedghost]

I've been locked up in psych for about 6 weeks with no phone. Another failed attempt I don't want to talk about. I'm still as mentally ill as ever. maybe worse. I found a tree in the woods near my house today for fsh. That's my next endeavor. I am in so much mental pain it's unbearable.

i'm so sorry

a big part of why they held you so long is they probably sensed your class and figured you could pay for a long stay. they kick out people much much quicker if they are poor

it's never about helping people, it's about money

those place are absolute fucking hell, and if it made you feel 500 times worse, i undertand, as some of the worst dehumanizing hell took place at mental health hospitals.

you should also know your account showed as active prior to today and when I messaged you to say hi, your account showed as active. i don't chat with you much, if ever, but you're one of my favorite people on here from your articulate posts

 

[madwoman]

Yes, won't lie my first thought was "I'm glad she's still here" but I know maybe that wouldn't be what you want to hear since I know you don't want to be. And being suicidal myself, I get it. I am sending love, when a big thing like this happens, it's so hard to process it and return to life as it was. I had a mental breakdown during the pandemic where I did go to a psych ward and had psychosis, it was so fucking hard returning back to life and took me a long time to move past that. That was a dark time so I'm sorry you are going through that. My heart is with you.

 

[fadedghost]

I hear the waiting list is 2-3 years. Do you you know?

i that true?

 

[Baisley]

I remember you for sure. I was wondering where u have been, I thought that you got outta this life. I know you have been wanting to for a while now. I am sorry. I am stuck here still too, and I want out , it seems impossible. I hope eventually that u can find peace.

 

[Defenestrator]

No, it doesn't work that way. Most people get a VAD date set within like a month of their approval. Most people don't get approved, the vetting process is the bottleneck, not the calendar. No one is going to wait 3 years for a VAD.

Processing time for applications takes like two weeks, that's when they let you know if you're approved, and that 's when you set the VAD date.

I just read their website and you have to have someone who knows you very well to go with you. No exceptions - need proof they've had a relationship with you too and they have to stay for up to 10 days after your death to accept your remains.

 

[badatparties]

I just read their website and you have to have someone who knows you very well to go with you. No exceptions - need proof they've had a relationship with you too and they have to stay for up to 10 days after your death to accept your remains.

Can you post a link, i didn't see anything about staying for 10 days in the frequently asked questions. They mail the patients ashes home all the time, so that part seems completely unnecessary.

 

[dalemar]

I've been locked up in psych for about 6 weeks with no phone. Another failed attempt I don't want to talk about. I'm still as mentally ill as ever. maybe worse. I found a tree in the woods near my house today for fsh. That's my next endeavor. I am in so much mental pain it's unbearable.

Sorry to hear about those 6 weeks :(
Whatever you decide, I hope everything turns out favorable for you.

 

[Echo]

I wondered how you were doing these days. 6 weeks is such a long time in the ward I hope it wasnt too stressful for you. Sending you a warm hug if you'd like one.

 

[A_Spartan_Dead]

JEBUS H FUCK, another failed attempt. You said you were in your 50's right, you should be able to access Pegasos. But i know in your position, you're probably too depressed to even file the paperwork. Can your boyfriend help you?

I wish you peace, and fuck whoever created this planet.

Rare for Pegasos to do it unless you have serious physical disease that's terminal, but could be.