Heavily considering CTB tomorrow

[puppyboy]

Feelin' like a fucking idiot, I keep postponing the dates I want to CTB and I feel like an attention whore. I know that there isn't a rush to die but I'm seriously pissing myself off by not biting the bullet. Poison's right there, why can't I take them?

Kinda wanted to book a fancy hotel so I could feel rich for a second before I OD lol. I can't find any that are to my liking though. But anyways, call me a fuckin' dumbass if you want, but unrequited love is partially the reason I'm gonna CTB. "Ohh but there's plenty of fish in the sea" LESBIANS DON'T GROW ON TREES!!!!

Anyways, I'm gonna start packing luggage so I don't look TOO suspicious. Gonna bring a few plushies to cuddle with while OD'ing. I'll just settle for a basic hotel room, it'd be fitting for a loser like me. I'm so exhausted that it feels like so much to go through, but hoooooly shit am I tired of existing. I'll never amount to anything, I'm completely unlovable, my goddamn ex is a walking reminder that I should kill myself. I'll be booking it for tomorrow night. If it doesn't work, I'll report back.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[VeryLonelyBread]

Feelin' like a fucking idiot, I keep postponing the dates I want to CTB and I feel like an attention whore. I know that there isn't a rush to die but I'm seriously pissing myself off by not biting the bullet. Poison's right there, why can't I take them?

Kinda wanted to book a fancy hotel so I could feel rich for a second before I OD lol. I can't find any that are to my liking though. But anyways, call me a fuckin' dumbass if you want, but unrequited love is partially the reason I'm gonna CTB. "Ohh but there's plenty of fish in the sea" LESBIANS DON'T GROW ON TREES!!!!

Anyways, I'm gonna start packing luggage so I don't look TOO suspicious. Gonna bring a few plushies to cuddle with while OD'ing. I'll just settle for a basic hotel room, it'd be fitting for a loser like me. I'm so exhausted that it feels like so much to go through, but hoooooly shit am I tired of existing. I'll never amount to anything, I'm completely unlovable, my goddamn ex is a walking reminder that I should kill myself. I'll be booking it for tomorrow night. If it doesn't work, I'll report back.

This is so real if I had a reliable source to OD on this would be literally peak for me fuck I miss my ex and yeah lesbians don't grow on trees I fucking hate that I can't just move on because like what the fuck do you mean I need to find another million to one odds person who could love me