2106lvsk
Member
- Dec 17, 2024
- 30
this might sound stupid but eh. i met an incel on reddit and we began talking and i started liking him so much and he did too. i planned to ctb but after we started talking, he gave me so much hope, i stopped thinking about it seriously. we started dating and it was going so great. i know online stuff dont last but i was sure me and him were different.
he started making plans to come visit me in my country, told his family about me, would spend money to support my hobbies. we'd talk all day long. he told me i changed him and how i stopped him from ctb. everything was going so fucking great and then one week, he turned into a completely different person.
he stopped sleeping, started drinking and doing drugs. i told him to stop and he just got mad, he said that people irl who made fun of him liked him when he was high and drunk because he was less anxious. him doing drugs especially hurt me a lot because my dad also suffers from a drug addiction and it ruined my life and is one of the reasons why i wanna end it all.
but despite that i still stuck by him because i wanted him to get better. and then he met another girl. 2 years younger. he said shes like a sister to him, i believe him to a point. but my jealousy got in the way and we'd get into arguments about her. he grew weirdly attached to her and i felt like i was being pushed aside and my dear of being abandoned really took over. id cry a lot and beg him to not leave me and he'd just get mad.
we got into a huge argument and then he sent me a bunch of voice messages talking about how he had stopped caring for me a long time ago, like even before all this happened. and how he didnt care even a little when id beg and cry to him and only felt annoyance. and then he blocked me.
i still cant believe its real. a part of me just thinks this is all a nightmare. i cant believe he treated me that way. he was so fucking sweet and then just within a week, everything changes? how the fuck does that happen? i just want my sweet boy back :(
he started making plans to come visit me in my country, told his family about me, would spend money to support my hobbies. we'd talk all day long. he told me i changed him and how i stopped him from ctb. everything was going so fucking great and then one week, he turned into a completely different person.
he stopped sleeping, started drinking and doing drugs. i told him to stop and he just got mad, he said that people irl who made fun of him liked him when he was high and drunk because he was less anxious. him doing drugs especially hurt me a lot because my dad also suffers from a drug addiction and it ruined my life and is one of the reasons why i wanna end it all.
but despite that i still stuck by him because i wanted him to get better. and then he met another girl. 2 years younger. he said shes like a sister to him, i believe him to a point. but my jealousy got in the way and we'd get into arguments about her. he grew weirdly attached to her and i felt like i was being pushed aside and my dear of being abandoned really took over. id cry a lot and beg him to not leave me and he'd just get mad.
we got into a huge argument and then he sent me a bunch of voice messages talking about how he had stopped caring for me a long time ago, like even before all this happened. and how he didnt care even a little when id beg and cry to him and only felt annoyance. and then he blocked me.
i still cant believe its real. a part of me just thinks this is all a nightmare. i cant believe he treated me that way. he was so fucking sweet and then just within a week, everything changes? how the fuck does that happen? i just want my sweet boy back :(
