"once the pain of death becomes less than the pain of life" is a piss poor philosophy, and a terrible thing to say.
That's not the reality. It will not become easier to "defeat SI" if you let your life become worse or actively make it worse through self sabotage or reckless behaviour.
Take it from someone aged 30 who was STUPID enough to believe this in my younger days.
if you let your life become worse or actively make it worse through self sabotage or reckless behaviour.
Indeed! But honestly, if I had to make my life actively worse to be able to find a reason to kms I would reconsider my decision very intensely.
More suffering and pain are inevitable in such a case and SI might really get stronger, if there's the chance to improve it by just stopping the self-sabotage.
Don't get me wrong, I don't wanna invalidate your suffering.
Believe me, things in life can go wrong, can go against you and make you actively suicidal from deep inside your mind without having to self-sabotage bc you simply do not have an influence on why your life is falling apart.
That is what I refer to with my
"piss poor philosophy".