Goodbye thread

[unhopeful]

Well this is...awkward.

It's 9pm. Between my IRL friends who know, and the people I'm protecting and scheduled messages for...I'm still not done. I was, it seems, too ambitious trying to do everything today, and more people wanted to talk to me than I thought. I still need to measure my dose and review the instructions to make sure I'm doing it right, and I'm shaky, and it's been 8 hours...

I think I'm going to have to wait until tomorrow. I don't want to rush.

Wow.

I was not expecting this.


Thank you. I can only hope that my deeds measure up to such a claim. I know I tried to be, at least.

Please don't feel like you failed.

You seem like such a good person. I wish I got to know you better. I loved Genshin too, I just unfortunately stopped being able to enjoy any hobby in life anymore. I'm sorry the world was so cruel to you. You deserve better. I hope you find peace.

We will support you no matter what. Sleep well.

 

[thesighofleaves]

I'm still here.

I was too physically exhausted to go last night. Now I'm awake and am crying and can't get out of bed to make myself do anything.

I'm so tired. I just want to be somewhere where I have no obligations and responsibilities so I can rest, for months and years. I can't push myself through life. If life will just be trials and no breaks. I don't wanna do this. But I have so much I wanna do.

Everything hurts so much. I don't know what to do. Everything hurts so much. There's no happy ending.

 

[glass-petal]

I'm still here.

I was too physically exhausted to go last night. Now I'm awake and am crying and can't get out of bed to make myself do anything.

I'm so tired. I just want to be somewhere where I have no obligations and responsibilities so I can rest, for months and years. I can't push myself through life. If life will just be trials and no breaks. I don't wanna do this. But I have so much I wanna do.

Everything hurts so much. I don't know what to do. Everything hurts so much. There's no happy ending.

i'm so sorry the weight of the world is crushing you right now, it must be excruciating. i wish i could just press the pause button for you and give you that much needed rest.

 

[CatLvr]

I'm still here.

I was too physically exhausted to go last night. Now I'm awake and am crying and can't get out of bed to make myself do anything.

I'm so tired. I just want to be somewhere where I have no obligations and responsibilities so I can rest, for months and years. I can't push myself through life. If life will just be trials and no breaks. I don't wanna do this. But I have so much I wanna do.

Everything hurts so much. I don't know what to do. Everything hurts so much. There's no happy ending.

Oh baby ... It's okay. I cannot even tell you how many times I have cried myself out in the shower (so the husband and kids wouldn't hear me). Please do something today that makes you feel better -- even if it is something as simple as just laying in a nice warm bathtub with whatever your favorite drink is and your favorite music on. I know it's easier said than done but try to get out of your own head for just a little bit.

I wish I could do more for you. Here is the only hug I can give you right now. Just know if I was there I would hold you and let you cry for as long as you needed to. This world is SO unrelenting sometimes. God, I hope that doesn't sound as creepy as I feel like it does. But is also feels like you need to hear it, too.

 

[idfwlnh]

I'm still here.

I was too physically exhausted to go last night. Now I'm awake and am crying and can't get out of bed to make myself do anything.

I'm so tired. I just want to be somewhere where I have no obligations and responsibilities so I can rest, for months and years. I can't push myself through life. If life will just be trials and no breaks. I don't wanna do this. But I have so much I wanna do.

Everything hurts so much. I don't know what to do. Everything hurts so much. There's no happy ending.

I know right...world is cruel. Even dying is hard. Just that I'm somehow still glad that you're here. I hope you are doing better rn wherever you are

 

[ilovenewyork]

Why don't you flush the SN? Just for now. You can always reorder it later.
Take some time to think this through. It's a big decision and you need to rest first. After you've rested for a few days you will think clearly and know what to do

 

[thesighofleaves]

Oh baby ... It's okay. I cannot even tell you how many times I have cried myself out in the shower (so the husband and kids wouldn't hear me). Please do something today that makes you feel better -- even if it is something as simple as just laying in a nice warm bathtub with whatever your favorite drink is and your favorite music on. I know it's easier said than done but try to get out of your own head for just a little bit.

I wish I could do more for you. Here is the only hug I can give you right now. Just know if I was there I would hold you and let you cry for as long as you needed to. This world is SO unrelenting sometimes. God, I hope that doesn't sound as creepy as I feel like it does. But is also feels like you need to hear it, too.

Thank you so much

I wanted to tell you earlier that your other message meant the world to me. I was sobbing last night because I didn't understand why or how someone could be so nice. Everyone's been so understanding but this one and your message before this in particular really stood out. idk i just wanna say thank you

I know right...world is cruel. Even dying is hard. Just that I'm somehow still glad that you're here. I hope you are doing better rn wherever you are

thank you so much

Why don't you flush the SN? Just for now. You can always reorder it later.
Take some time to think this through. It's a big decision and you need to rest first. After you've rested for a few days you will think clearly and know what to do

I can't just reorder it later. SN is getting harder and harder to find. I went through great pains to reseal it after I bought it to make it last as much as possible bc of how much the world hates the idea of us leaving on our own. If I somehow live long enough that it expires, when it does idk what I'm gonna do.

I wish I was Canadian. They are sane up there. They're extending MAID to people with mental health issues in a year. Any one who is canadian you don't know how good you have it.

Please don't feel like you failed.

You seem like such a good person. I wish I got to know you better. I loved Genshin too, I just unfortunately stopped being able to enjoy any hobby in life anymore. I'm sorry the world was so cruel to you. You deserve better. I hope you find peace.

We will support you no matter what. Sleep well.

thank you so much
i'm sorry hobbies have been hard. i understand that also. i got to a point there was only two things I cared about, and that hasn't been enough. basically everything is just fear and pain and anger and exhaustion.

You deserve better too. I'm sad anyone has to be on this site.