Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace from this torturous existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is peace from this torturous existence, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be forgotten in the peace of non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and nothing in this dreadful, unnecessary and undesirable existence can concern me, all I want is to never suffer again and I'll always find it so torturous, painful and dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing. It's just all so dreadful to me and I suffer so much as a result of this futile existence, it's all so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I just always saw as causing nothing but harm, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this futile existence I never would had chosen and never would wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from existing.
I truly do always suffer so much as a result of this terrible, dreadful existence and it's all so cruel to me, more than anything I just wish I never suffered, I never should had suffered in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer again.


Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace.

I'll just only be at peace once I'm n longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this dreadful, futile existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want to never wake ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily, it's just all so painful to me and I suffer so much from being burdened with this painful existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious of this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much pain in existing, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence rather all I want is to never wake ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all just so terrible and I wish I never had to suffer, I just never should had suffered at all in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, dreadful mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish to suffer so unnecessarily rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, cruel existence, I suffer simply from existing.

I just wish I never suffered in this terrible, dreadful existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake but or course all the cruelty and suffering just continues with me just hoping and waiting to be gone and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just futile unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, cruelty and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting for death and I suffer from waiting to die in this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existing is just so futile, dreadful and torturous and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer so much from waiting for death, all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just only be at peace from all the suffering in eternal sleep where finally nothing in this futile, dreadful existence can concern me, all I want is peace from the pain and suffering, I just want to never wake.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence I never would had chosen and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me, I just want to sleep permanently and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never suffering ever again as all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, futile existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much as a result of existing.
I truly do always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never exist again.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with me no longer burdened with this existence and I'll just always find it the most terrible burden to exist. It's one only non-existence can bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing.

It's all just so dreadful and I wish I never suffered in this cruel existence I always saw as a mistake more than anything, to me existence really is an abomination and it's one that just causes all this harm, cruelty and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway. I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so dreadful and painful to me and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, it's just all so terrible and painful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as an abomination to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, all I want is to be at peace from the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me.

I'd never wish for any of this suffering, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this terrible, torturous existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so cruel and there's so much cruelty in this painful, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, I always hope and wish to erase this existence, all I want is peace from this abomination. I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so cruel, dreadful and painful to me and I suffer so much as a result of this terrible, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm as a result, I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again and I'll just only be at peace in non-existence where this cruel, futile existence is finally all gone and forgotten with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an unnecessary harm to me.
It really is always an unnecessary harm to me and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous, dreadful and harmful existence more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where this existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this harmful existence destined to decay and die anyway.

It's just all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this futile existence and I'll just always and only see existing as only suffering, it's just all so cruel, terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, I'd just never wish for this futile, harmful and torturous existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious.
I really will just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious with this dreadful, futile existence all gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to be conscious in this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence, it's just all so painful to me and there's just so much pain in this existence I never would had chosen.

I just suffer as a result of existing and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this dreadful, cruel existence of pain and suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's all so terrible, dreadful and cruel and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again and I suffer so much as a result of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so cruel to me.
It really is so cruel to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, painful and dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake, it's just so cruel and terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered.

It's all so cruel to me and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is just all I see aa desirable, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as such a harmful, dreadful mistake causing and bringing all this suffering as a result and I suffer simply from being conscious, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so torturous where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all so terrible and I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from the pain and suffering of this dreadful existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for, all I want is to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace
All I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, torturous and futile existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing.