Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[_Gollum_]

"Conscious life, although but a blip on the radar of cosmic time, is laden with suffering--suffering that is directed to no end other than its own perpetuation."

FC, I am sorry that you have been implicated in this tragedy of conscious existence. All my love to you <3

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of peaceful death being denied.
No matter what I really will always see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be free from the abomination of existence.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's one so cruel and dreadful that just causes harm and suffering, it's just so horrific how we exist in this anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, the fact that peaceful death is denied for me is such terrible extreme cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever causes harm and suffering.
It truly does only ever cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence rather all I want is some peace.

I just want to never suffer again, I'd just never wish for this harmful, terrible and torturous existence that I just always saw as such a cruel mistake and I'll just always see existing as being only suffering, I just want some peace from the suffering cruelty and torture of existing and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, for me ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention from this existence I just always saw as the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always a terrible mistake to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as such a terrible mistake to suffer in this cruel dreadful existence and I'd just never wish for any of this dreadful suffering, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the mistake of existence.

I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, I just want to never suffer again, in this existence so torturous that just causes harm non-existence is the only relief, existence truly is just a mistake that never should had been imposed and as long as I exist I'll only hope for some peace from it, I just hope and wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for true peace from the evil of existing.
No matter what true peace from the terrible, dreadful evil of existing really is all I could hope for and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this terrible, dreadful existence I just always saw as the most cruel, harmful mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

To me existence is just so evil, existence is an abomination that just harms and tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence, all I want is to erase this evil, deeply undesirable existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered, for me non-existence truly is all I see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this torturous, cruel existence.
No matter what I truly would never wish for this cruel, torturous existence of unnecessary suffering rather all I want is to be gone, I just hope for this dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake to be all forgotten and erased for me.

For me non-existence is just the only peace from the pain and suffering of existing and I just wish I never had to suffer, I just hope for no more suffering, existence to me is just the most terrible, tragic mistake and I'd just never wish for this torturous existence that to me will always just be suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace from suffering.
I truly will only be at peace from suffering in non-existence and in this existence so cruel, terrible and dreadful the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, I just wish and hope to be gone.

I just want to erase this terrible, torturous existence that just causes suffering, I just want peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist, no matter what I truly will always see existing as just being futile unnecessary suffering and I just always suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence that just tortures existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of this painful existence.
I truly do always suffer as a result of this painful dreadful existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this torturous, painful existence as only suffering.

For me non-existence is just all that's positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from the pain of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it, this painful, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake truly never should had been imposed and it's so terrible how it was causing all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the most cruel mistake.
It truly is always the cruel mistake that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just never wish for the pain of this torturous harmful existence rather all I want is peace, I just want to never suffer again.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, all I want is to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible, dreadful mistake of existence that just causes all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this terrible, cruel existence and I'd just never wish for any of this, existence just feels like a cruel mistake to me that just causes harm and suffering and for me non-existence is just the only peace.

I just wish for no more suffering and I'll just always see this dreadful existence as just being suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence really is just always the problem, for me every second is torture to be conscious, all I want is to peacefully prevent all future unnecessary suffering through ceasing to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again.

I'll always see this torturous existence as just being suffering, I just want to be free from this terrible, dreadful existence of unnecessary suffering, I just hope to be gone, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'll always see this dreadful, torturous existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is some peace, I just wish to be permanently free from the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing.

To me existence will always feel like a mistake and I find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I just always saw as a mistake, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me non-existence is the only peace.
It truly is the only peace for me from this existence so cruel and dreadful and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to be gone, all I hope for is true peace from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake.

For me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence so dreadful, terrible and torturous and I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this torturous, dreadful existence as only suffering, I just want to erase this cruel, dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the suffering of this harmful, cruel existence.
No matter what I really would never wish to suffer in this cruel, harmful existence rather I just want some peace.

I just want to never suffer again, all that existence ever does is just cause harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence, all I hope for is to be gone, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this painful, cruel existence as only suffering, I just want some peace from the suffering of this cruel, harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only and always hoping to never suffer ever again.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is to never suffer again, I just want to erase this dreadful, terrible and tortuous existence so it's like I never suffered at all and I'll always see existing as just being suffering, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered.

All I want is some peace from the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing and I'll always see existing as just being suffering, I just want this existence to be all gone and forgotten, all I want is some peace from the terrible, torturous imposition of existence that just causes all this harm and suffering, I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from not being able to cease existing peacefully.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be free from the terrible, dreadful and torturous abomination of existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering.

I'll always see existing as being only suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, I just want non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this futile, cruel existence that just causes harm and tortures existing beings all for the sake of it, the fact that peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me is such terrible extreme cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence has only ever caused harm.
It truly has only ever caused harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this dreadful, painful and cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to erase this torturous existence that just causes harm.

All that existence ever does is just torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's just all so terrible and dreadful, no matter what I really will always prefer to not exist than suffer and I'll just always see this torturous, cruel existence as just being only suffering, to suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of this dreadful existence rather all I want is to be gone.

I just want all to be forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous existence, I just want to be gone, I just hope and wish to erase this existence that causes all this dreadful suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, existence to me is just always the problem, I'll always see it as a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always and only suffering to me.
It truly is only suffering to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is peace from this torturous, dreadful existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I just hope for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as just being futile suffering.

I just want to be gone, I wish I could just erase this existence I just always saw as a cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this torturous existence that just causes harm and so much pain with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this dreadful existence is just always a terrible mistake to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as the most terrible cruel mistake to suffer in this existence and in this existence so torturous and cruel only non-existence can bring me any peace.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just hope for no more suffering, it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed at all, existence to me is just a dreadful mistake that only ever causes harm and suffering, no matter what I'll just always see this painful existence as just being suffering, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing never suffering again as desirable.
No matter what I truly could only see never suffering again as desirable and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous, deeply undesirable existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again.

No matter what I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the suffering, cruelty and torture of this dreadful, futile existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so terrible, torturous and cruel that just causes harm and suffering, all I want is to be gone, I just want to erase this existence, I just want peace from this existence that to me will always be a cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is just so much evil in existing.
There truly is so much evil in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, torturous existence, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, tragic abomination.

I'll always see existence as the problem that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering torturing existing beings with existing beings in agony every second, the suffering and torture of existing really is endless with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just hope to be gone, I just want to never suffer in this evil, torturous and dreadful existence ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me than the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence, I just hope to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again and for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, non-existence is just all I see as positive and desirable, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination to me and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this terrible, dreadful existence as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposistion.
No matter what I really will always see existence as an imposistion and it's one that just causes all this harm, suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this terrible, torturous existence.

For me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence of dreadful, torturous suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, I just want to be gone from it all, I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence that was so tragically imposed, this existence never should had been imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping to erase this existence.
I truly will always and only hope to erase this existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I just want to disappear from this torturous existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake.

To never suffer again is just all I see as desirable, I just want some peace from the abomination of existence that just causes all this terrible dreadful cruelty, harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it, no matter what I'd just never wish for the torture and suffering of this painful, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for all to be gone for me in non-existence.
I truly could only hope for all to be gone for me in non-existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing rather I just want some peace, I wish to erase this existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me.

I'll just always prefer the peace of never suffering again over being tortured in this futile, painful existence I just always saw as a mistake, this existence really never should had been imposed, nothing pile ever make me wish for this torturous existence of dreadful suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all that can bring me peace from the suffering and torture of existing.
It truly is all that can bring me any peace from the suffering of existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result.

I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so terrible and dreadful that just causes all this futile suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly does just cause harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this terrible, evil existence, all I want is to erase this existence, I just want some peace from the torture and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably and I'll always see existing as just being only suffering.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, for me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence that only ever causes and brings all this cruelty, harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much as a result of this evil existence.
I truly do always suffer so much as a result of this evil existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence that just causes cruelty, pain and suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

I just want this terrible, torturous existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always see this torturous, dreadful existence as just being suffering, all I hope is for this existence to be no longer my problem and I just suffer so much as a result of this painful, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does just cause so much harm torturing existing beings and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, deeply undesirable existence, in this existence so terrible and torturous non-existence is just the only peace for me and is all I could hope for in this existence so dreadful, existence truly does just torture existing beings all for the sake of it.

I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existence will always be such a terrible, cruel and dreadful mistake that only ever causes harm, no matter what I'd never wish for this harmful existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering.