Yea but the research and planning can be overwhelming. I was set on partial hanging, attempted a few times but cant get it to work.
its a lot, i thought it would be simple but since i've been reading on it a lot more - especially on this site - it seems like i have to put much more thought into it than i originally considered. i'm just thankful for the resources and differing opinions from other members that helps.
I wouldn't say "happier", but there is some kind of peace, a lessening of the perpetual stress of my days. The final part of my plan should fall into place next week, which gives me a date of next weekend. There's a little sadness involved too, as I was really trying to give life a go, but it's just not working.
there definitely is some sadness. i won't lie, after making this post i cried a bit at the sadness that i'm truly losing hope. still, i just don't think i was cut out for this life, maybe the next one if that's a possibility.
i'm glad you're working towards a goal, having a date is a comfort. that being said, i don't know your circumstances or what you've tried, nor would i ever ask a stranger to prolong their suffering, but i think the fact that you had some desire to give life a go is worth something. if you feel that spark in you again before next weekend, no matter how deep down, i'd hope you could consider giving it one last try. i don't know anything, but maybe that little bit of hope means something more.