• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

puppybrained

puppybrained

they/them
Jul 15, 2024
36
i can't say i've fully set my heart on it, but everyday i feel closer and closer and more comfortable with the idea, and i've noticed i've been a lot more chipper, lighthearted, and energetic (even though overall im still kind of miserable). it's such a comforting and freeing feeling to feel like i'm making progress towards my one goal. it feels like a weight being lifted. does anyone else feel like this when they think about finally doing it?
 
  • Like
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: divinemistress36, CosmicPaperCut, bleakwinter and 3 others
M

ms-lovely

Member
Jun 22, 2024
28
My date is set for tomorrow evening and I have finished all preparations, honestly i feel good, like a weird sense of tranquility, i already know how my day will go tomorrow and im sort of enjoying my final days.
 
  • Like
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: bleakwinter, Roadrunner, lynnschronicles and 1 other person
puppybrained

puppybrained

they/them
Jul 15, 2024
36
My date is set for tomorrow evening and I have finished all preparations, honestly i feel good, like a weird sense of tranquility, i already know how my day will go tomorrow and im sort of enjoying my final days.
that makes sense, i hope you're having a good day today. everyone deserves to be at peace towards the end. i'm glad you feel like you are. good luck!
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: bleakwinter, ms-lovely and Roadrunner
Hellish Ore

Hellish Ore

Mould on bread
Nov 5, 2023
82
The idea of it is like my comfort zone.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: bleakwinter, lynnschronicles and puppybrained
puppybrained

puppybrained

they/them
Jul 15, 2024
36
The idea of it is like my comfort zone.
same, i've always felt calmer while imagining myself dying, but really wanting to die and not just fantasizing is really comfy
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: bleakwinter
S

Sover

Member
Jan 21, 2019
9
Yea but the research and planning can be overwhelming. I was set on partial hanging, attempted a few times but cant get it to work.
 
  • Love
Reactions: bleakwinter and lynnschronicles
kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
I wouldn't say "happier", but there is some kind of peace, a lessening of the perpetual stress of my days. The final part of my plan should fall into place next week, which gives me a date of next weekend. There's a little sadness involved too, as I was really trying to give life a go, but it's just not working.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: CosmicPaperCut, bleakwinter and lynnschronicles
puppybrained

puppybrained

they/them
Jul 15, 2024
36
Yea but the research and planning can be overwhelming. I was set on partial hanging, attempted a few times but cant get it to work.
its a lot, i thought it would be simple but since i've been reading on it a lot more - especially on this site - it seems like i have to put much more thought into it than i originally considered. i'm just thankful for the resources and differing opinions from other members that helps.
I wouldn't say "happier", but there is some kind of peace, a lessening of the perpetual stress of my days. The final part of my plan should fall into place next week, which gives me a date of next weekend. There's a little sadness involved too, as I was really trying to give life a go, but it's just not working.
there definitely is some sadness. i won't lie, after making this post i cried a bit at the sadness that i'm truly losing hope. still, i just don't think i was cut out for this life, maybe the next one if that's a possibility.
i'm glad you're working towards a goal, having a date is a comfort. that being said, i don't know your circumstances or what you've tried, nor would i ever ask a stranger to prolong their suffering, but i think the fact that you had some desire to give life a go is worth something. if you feel that spark in you again before next weekend, no matter how deep down, i'd hope you could consider giving it one last try. i don't know anything, but maybe that little bit of hope means something more.
 
Last edited:
  • Love
Reactions: bleakwinter
B

bleakwinter

Member
Jul 13, 2024
7
I feel sad cause I love classical music, but thinking of all dead who did, it feels easier.
 

Similar threads

usernamesarehard
Replies
0
Views
214
Suicide Discussion
usernamesarehard
usernamesarehard
ReincarnatedGibbon
Replies
18
Views
793
Offtopic
Pluto
Pluto
Alexei_Kirillov
Replies
12
Views
645
Suicide Discussion
Alexei_Kirillov
Alexei_Kirillov