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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Apr 15, 2024
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I have it every morning! Sometimes more times (making it nigh impossible to fall back asleep). It feels like someone rustles me awake about to beat me, and my heart starts racing. But my only thoughts are not fear but dread about my life situation, and hating every day. I now therefore dread going to bed, knowing what awaits me every morning. 😩
 
BlackDog81

BlackDog81

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May 27, 2023
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Totally get this, I'm sure it's one of the contributing factors to my insomnia, it's like if I dont go to bed then tomorrow can't get me. Alas it always does. Shame too, as sleep used to be one of my favourite things. A glimpse of the peace that death perhaps affords us. Now any sleep I manage is full of night sweats, teeth grinding, restlessness and as you said a huge dump of anxiety upon waking up.
 
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