Do you know anyone who’s died of suicide?

[Gl1tch3d G1rl]

No one irl, but have lost several close friends on sasu. The thoughest one by far though was my bff @Ash. I belive her ctb was uneccecary also, although it wasn't her fault. She was pushed towards ctb by a shitty mh system that abandoned her when she needed them the most. I'm glad she is in peace though I wish the ctb would have been on her own premiss rather than being pressured into it by a failing mh system. It's tragic really.

 

[Griever]

I miss my best friend every day

 

[yxmux]

nope. not a single person. not even anyone with active suicidal ideation (that i'm aware of). i might be a bit of an outlier here

 

[karakoltriste]

Have you lost anyone to suicide? Has it changed how you view your own possible exit?

I've lost 2 close friends to suicide. I'm autistic so I haven't been close to many people in my life. I tend to attract and be attracted to neurodivergent people with mental health issues, so it's of no surprise to me that of the 5 people I've been closest to in life, 2 are dead from suicide.

My first friend and I talked a lot about suicide. We both believed we would experience a self-chosen death, even if it was not in the immediate future. He worked so hard on his mental health issues. Therapy, in-patient treatment, medications, Buddhist practices…… the list goes on. I support his decision to end his life because his suffering was overwhelming. I miss him tremendously, but it would be selfish of me to want him to suffer for me. I believe he made the right decision for himself.

My other close friend and I never really discussed suicide. Her death caught me by surprise. She was suffering from postpartum depression. I don't believe it was the right decision for her because she was in a temporary bad place. I believe it she stuck around, things would have gotten better. It hurts me that her son will grow up without his mother. I believe she convinced herself that she was bad for him and he would be better off with her dead, but nothing could be further from the truth.

I've always been upset that the first friend I mentioned didn't call me or leave me a note. We had discussed suicide many times and he knew I would support his decision and not do any welfare check BS. I'm glad he is at peace, but I'm sad I didn't get to say goodbye. Because of this, I will call my best friend to tell her goodbye. She already knows this and wants me to. I would also leave letters to other loved ones.

I also have many acquaintances who've died by suicide. One, I had a meeting (recorded) with him 2 weeks before he shot himself in the head. Out of curiosity to the mentality of a person 2 weeks before their suicide, I started to listen recording of the interview. I hadn't noticed anything off in the meeting, but hindsight is 20/20. We said hello and he asked how I was. I said I was fine but sad summer was over (it was early Sept). He told me he's optimistic and he believes we will still have more summer days. I found his optimism a bit strange and didn't listen to the rest of the recorded meeting.

Yes, 2 friends. One of them bought a lot of diazepam from me days before

 

[50decadesleft]

Yeah, a classmate from middle school. Caught the bus a few years later. She was always alone and got bullied a lot, I hurt everyday for not reaching out to her and at least trying to help......

 

[LetMeOut67]

Yes about half a dozen I think.

 

[darksouls]

I had to go to a psychiatric hospital again and again
unfortunately it often happens that patients commit suicide
most of the time we were not told anything about the cicumstances
I often think of a young man
he was in his early twenties
he grew up in a loving family
but he heard voices and could not cope
his mother found him in the attic
he had hanged himself
may they all rest in peace

 

[lonely person1]

nope. not a single person.

 

[AuraByte]

One family member jumped in front of a train. Another had various suicide attempts until they died of natural causes.

My family genepool and mental health history is fucked.

 

[FoxSauce]

Well one of fam members that ive never knew about she had schizophrenia so yeah. She ended herself. Ive never met her or anything. She died before i met her

 

[prettysurethistime]

Not anyone close, although a few attempts. I found out someone I knew (who grew up down the road, was born in the same ward at the same time as my sister and her family ran the newsagents we regularly used to get travel cards etc.) Killed herself last year or the year before. It made me so sad because I knew her family loved her and she had a small baby. She was also a really kind person.

And I found out a doctor who had tried to reach out to help me killed himself a few weeks ago. I know a little more than I should about the local politics in the medical community and coupled with so many former patients saying he'd helped them, I'm going to guess he was actually one of the good ones and it's, to put it bluntly, boiled my piss quite a bit. I might write my own post about this and not get into it here but I've really had some shitty experiences with healthcare and if I thought I could turn stuff around, I wouldn't want to CTB. Mostly the fact this guy died alone in the woods when he definitely had family and friends who loved him and was still a successful doctor, just makes me ashamed at how ungrateful we humans altogether are.

 

[kitkat9234]

I've had four friends CTB. I think my dad did but it wasn't ruled a suicide because he didn't leave a note. "Accidental OD". And I guess my ex technically did. He just drank himself to death.

 

[Seaofsleep]

My mum almost. Walked in front of a bus at the bottom of our street on my 21st birthday and somehow survived.