Discussion Do you guys have any hope left ?

[bl33ding_heart]

I have hope that I can change my current circumstance and improve my life for the better. But I just fear that it won't be worth it because my bpd will never leave my mind.

 

[The Eternal One]

At this moment I hope that I'll be able to finish work I came here to do: that I'll achieve personal satisfactory success at art one day and finish the story I'd love to tell through comics.
But this hope comes and goes, depending on how much despair and fear I experience at any given moment.
Nothing else holds me here, besides firm conviction in a form of responsibility for my mother and her cats.

 

[gardenhouse]

No, I keep hoping i will die in my sleep or have a cardiac arrest.

Are you still secretly waiting that things will eventually get better ? Or are you just stuck in the "i want to CTB but i don't know how / i'm not sure of which method i should go with".

I realized i'm ready to go and the only thing holding me back from saying goodbye is the fear of suffering a painful death.

I don't think things will get better in my case, I want CTB but the painless way is almost impossible to find. Also, I have financial responsibilities.

 

[Spite]

Not really. I think I'm nearing the end. I can't see my life ever getting better or being worth continuing. I've been miserable for such a long time now... why would any of it ever change?

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

Whatever the case, when June 19th hits, I will obtain my happy meal flag.

 

[thelostautistic]

A little but not much. I know I'll eventually ctb just not right now. I have things I need to do

 

[PainThreshold]

No.

 

[6486159051]

no, it's all downhill for me with my neural tissue dying xo

 

[Pluto]

 

[coolbeans]

the only thing keeping me going is the fact that, even though she abandoned me, i might still see her one day. maybe we'll be on a vacation at the same time and bump into eachother, maybe one day i'll get a notification that 'someone you know is on instagram!' and i'll open it to see her again.. maybe we'll meet and i'll finally feel like my life has meaning again. she's my everything

 

[lotus.dead]

Are you still secretly waiting that things will eventually get better ? Or are you just stuck in the "i want to CTB but i don't know how / i'm not sure of which method i should go with".

I realized i'm ready to go and the only thing holding me back from saying goodbye is the fear of suffering a painful death.

ykw, yeah. i absolutely have hope. But I cant face the horrors of being so suicidal and depressed anymore. i cant face the flashbacks, the overthinking, the horrible memories. I'd rather end than experience it again and again which i know is gonna happen.

 

[AMutatedFlower]

I'm retarded. There's no fixing retardation but with a rope or a gun. I even look retarded. I'm absolutely repulsive. All my hopes are in vain and all my dreams are in the trash. If I suddenly stop posting I'm probably dead. I successfully hanged myself

 

[endboss]

No.