Discussion Do you ever wish for someone to just do it for you ?

[charlieee]

For so many years i have wished that someone else just decided to end my life, because i never had the information nor the strength to bring myself to do it.
But i have always felt shitty about it.
Killing someone can ruin your life, it can eat your from the inside out and I don't want to be at the source of that kind of pain, but damn if only a psycho would just catch me in a street and end it all, it would all be easier.

 

[marleybarley]

I wish it can be that simple if only...

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Yeah. Putting the act in the hands of another person bypasses a lot of the problems I have with doing it myself.

You get to skip over survival instinct if someone just decides to murder you, and having a definite person to blame would be better than loved ones feeling guilty and confused why someone would CTB.

 

[ConstantPain]

Yes, I often have that hope. Even more I wish for a terminal condition or sudden stroke or heart attack. That way, no one would ever suffer any consequences for killing me. But if it's someone's desire to kill, I'd rather they kill me than someone else.

 

[Bishop]

If we want to ctb, that's in our own hands. No one gets to wuss out. It's a disgrace and rather shameful wanting someone else to do your dirty work. By no means am I'm saying that ctb is easy. This place would be empty if it were. I'll be the first to be honest and say that I don't have the constitution to take action.

 

[Echo]

Absolutely not, I'd rather go by my own hands not some psycho.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Hell no. Death is already terrifying enough. I'd like to be in control of it to at least mitigate those feelings. And I wouldn't want to have to process why they're trying to do it in the first place, in my dying moments, where I probably have no or very little information. Even something like a terminal illness or an accident could just strike at any random time. It'd be a relief but also not because wrong timing.

I'd take the burden of having to initiate on my own and follow through over not having to but having no control over how it happens.

 

[charlieee]

Yes, I often have that hope. Even more I wish for a terminal condition or sudden stroke or heart attack. That way, no one would ever suffer any consequences for killing me. But if it's someone's desire to kill, I'd rather they kill me than someone else.

Exactly, like I don't mind so if you feel like it go ahead.

If we want to ctb, that's in our own hands. No one gets to wuss out. It's a disgrace and rather shameful wanting someone else to do your dirty work. By no means am I'm saying that ctb is easy. This place would be empty if it were. I'll be the first to be honest and say that I don't have the constitution to take action.

I know that's why I am taking the matter into my own hands, there's multiple reasons why I want to ctb, shame from these kind of thoughts being one of them.

Yeah. Putting the act in the hands of another person bypasses a lot of the problems I have with doing it myself.

You get to skip over survival instinct if someone just decides to murder you, and having a definite person to blame would be better than loved ones feeling guilty and confused why someone would CTB.

Yeah, weirdly people react way better when someone else does it. I feel like it's better if you do it yourself.

 

[SASU-KE]

damn if only a psycho would just catch me in a street and end it all

Such a person would be,

Spoiler

 

[Frank Dive]

Yes, every time a large vehicle passes by. Also though, since I was young I was a bit of a hypochondriac, especially with moles or 'lumps' I found on my body and instantly jump to 'ITS CANCER!' and freak out. A tiny mole I've had since then started to hurt a little last year and while I still jumped to conclusions as to the cause, I'm disappointed that it probably isn't. And pre-emptively; I have had many family members who died to cancer and I know full well what it does to a person.

 

[burninghill]

Yes, always. Literally every moment I exist I imagine all the possible unlikely ways that I could die. Ceilings falling, tripping and breaking my neck, being shot.

 

[ConstantPain]

Exactly, like I don't mind so if you feel like it go ahead.

I know that's why I am taking the matter into my own hands, there's multiple reasons why I want to ctb, shame from these kind of thoughts being one of them.

Yeah, weirdly people react way better when someone else does it. I feel like it's better if you do it yourself.

I agree that people take it better if you don't do it yourself. Plus, as long as death was going to be the end result in a reasonable amount of time, I don't care if they hurt and/or torture me first. I feel so numb that I don't think I would care.
It's also true that I struggle with doing it myself or obviously I wouldn't be here.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

Mate, I think you just put into words what a lot of us here are thinking.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i wish i could pay someone to shoot me in the head . but of course we can't because they specifically made that a crime to keep us slaves in this evil prison world. they made any assisting in suicide a crime. they also made Nembutal a crime , and also the sarco suicide pod and many other things they do to keep us under control .

it's more guaranteed because someone else can take multiple shots. if i shoot myself i only get one shot and my aim and not flinching better be true.

if someone is suffering extreme torture or soon will be why can't they pay someone to assist them in suicide? who would it be hurting or affecting ? no one . the assister gets paid and wants to do it. the sufferer is saved from extreme torture. so why is it right for these government monsters to torture so many by making assisting suicide a crime and criminalizing every guaranteed suicide method? its not right it's pure evil to torture people when there is an easy way out pay someone, buy Nembutal , pay to use sarco suicide capsules, morphine , etc.
Nembutal and Morphine, fentanyl , heroin are also guaranteed painless ways out of this hell. but they are all illegal, criminalized.

they of course also restricted carbon monoxide cylinders also painless.

they even put fences around bridges to stop suicide even though that's a brutal method jumping. they do everything to stop suicide no matter how much the person is suffering and knowing we all will die anyway soon too cause how fast did the last 5 years fly by?

 

[hurts2b]

I don't want to be murdered but an assisted suicide or manslaughter situation wouldn't be so bad

 

[bl33ding_heart]

All the time. I wish someone could just stab me to death or shoot me so my death could be over and done with and I could finally stop suffering.

 

[Mrs. T-800]

I dream all the time of John Matrix from the movie Commando to do it. (It's Arnold, are you surprised?) Or just to torture me, never killing me, but putting pain and agony, enjoying my suffering.
I don't know why I chose that, I guess because he is so brutal. And in the movie he just goes about killing people, using all these weapons, and looking wonderfully and badass. Oh, and the quote. Come on... you don't just want to pull the trigger, you want to put the knife in me, and look me in the eye, and see what's going on in there when you turn it. That's what you want to do, right? Don't deprive yourself of some pleasure.
It would be a bit of a euphoria.

I am way too scared myself to do it so having someone do it no-hesitation would be swell.