Depression Megathread

[kalashnikova]

I've always known from the start that my life was going to be a shithole, I died a long time ago and no one noticed. I am no longer the same girl I used to be, and I don't think I was even anyone at all. All my life I have felt like an empty carcass, a void drifting through this existence with no purpose or ambition and waiting to die. I am an adult now and I don't think I'm going to reach 21, my life has been bound to end this way. I grieve what could've been and the person I could've turned out to be, but it's okay because all I want is to release myself from the shackles of my existence and this world. I was never meant to be here, I was meant to be somewhere far from this planet.

 

[lostgirl55]

I don't know what to do. Moved away from an abusive home just to go right back to one. My roommates have made me absolutely miserable. One didn't pay rent for months, allegedly lied about her paystubs, and the other one has been controlling / manipulative from the start by not only covering for this girl, but accusing me of things that I did not do.

Yesterday, they teamed up against me to force me to move out early and I'm so fucking tired. I just feel like crying, it really triggered me but I try not to end my life. I can't. I haven't played Mass Effect 5 yet.

All day, there were ganging up on me and saying that I didn't want to be there and that I need to leave -- one even said "I'm not sure where you going to stay" like what the fuck do you mean? What do you mean?? The same bitch who caused all of this shit? I have never had a stable household IM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT.