TheLastGreySky
Wizard
- Nov 24, 2023
- 648
So recently I had a short series of psychedelic trips and in the most recent one I uncovered a repressed memory (which I'll talk about in another post) as well as I became aware that I have imposter syndrome and that's one of the main reasons I've been stagnant as a artist and a musician the past several months.
I realize unless people are extremely positive with compliments I don't feel validated in what I do, and art used to never be about getting attention. I used to run from compliments and I was definitely my own biggest critic and now I'm aware that I have to deal with feeling like I'm not a "real" artist.
For anyone who's ever read the original teenage mutant Ninja turtle comics you'll probably know that the art is widely considered terrible even by the standards of the time, and yet it's a really good comic. So for a long time my question why I didn't draw more if my skill level wasn't the barrier to my happiness as an artist. Well, without dragging this on any further I believe I'm suffering from imposter syndrome. And I'm not sure how to deal with it productively. I'm very much anti-therapist because I feel like 70% of therapy is getting comfortable with someone and subjecting yourself to to their suggestion.
While never having the ability to actually open up about real world issues without them locking you up for being suicidal.
I realize unless people are extremely positive with compliments I don't feel validated in what I do, and art used to never be about getting attention. I used to run from compliments and I was definitely my own biggest critic and now I'm aware that I have to deal with feeling like I'm not a "real" artist.
For anyone who's ever read the original teenage mutant Ninja turtle comics you'll probably know that the art is widely considered terrible even by the standards of the time, and yet it's a really good comic. So for a long time my question why I didn't draw more if my skill level wasn't the barrier to my happiness as an artist. Well, without dragging this on any further I believe I'm suffering from imposter syndrome. And I'm not sure how to deal with it productively. I'm very much anti-therapist because I feel like 70% of therapy is getting comfortable with someone and subjecting yourself to to their suggestion.
While never having the ability to actually open up about real world issues without them locking you up for being suicidal.
