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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
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Feels better to dwell in darkness?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,889
Yes, I find overly positive things and people to be irritating and depressing. There is nothing to be positive about in my opinion, life is suffering. I think to be positive about life you must be delusional. The way I see it, wanting suicide is perfectly rational when you realise how horrible, and pointless life really is. There is no limit as to how bad things can get. Reading about suicide gives me more confidence that I can eventually go through with it, so that is all I want to hear about.
 
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obliviousatbest

obliviousatbest

atrophy
Nov 10, 2021
67
Completely. My being is overcome with melancholy and anything that beckons to take it away eventually becomes awash in misery as well. I'm giving up in grasping at positivity because the morbid alternative has always been more comforting, sadly.
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
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Feels better to dwell in darkness?
No.

Yes, and no.

Some days the "darkness" envelops you.

Meaning, you can attempt to be as bright, positive, and understanding as possible.

You can be a peacekeeper, or a shit disturber.

Some people will push that "brightness" into a darkened tunnel.

Unfortunately people are selfish and enjoy causing distress in others.

Are you "happy" and enjoying life?

How can I nag it into a destructive and dark and sad place for my own benefit?

That sounds like the family I was unfortunately exposed to for an extended period of time.

It is not a "perfect" world, but it could be.

And when we see it as a "perfect" world, it seems like people tend to find a way to destroy that for a person.

I wish I could go back 24 years and make a great escape.

Help is here, now. But it is not ideal, nor is it "fair," nor is it "equal."
 
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