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MyShadow

MyShadow

Torn between fixing and ending my life
Aug 27, 2025
309
Here's a checklist:
  • Feeling detached from my life.
  • Isolated and alone most of the time.
  • Hate where I live.
  • Barely able to make a proper living or even afford the essentials.
  • Getting anything done is next to impossible because of crushing depression.
  • Feel stuck between wanting to die and wanting to live, but struggling to find a reason to live.
  • Sleep too much or too little.
  • Constant intrusive thoughts.
  • Avoid friends and family.
  • Wasted entire days because of anxiety or depression.
  • Lost faith in mental health professionals.
  • No faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself.
How are you feeling now?
 
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Cosmophobic

Cosmophobic

Student
Aug 10, 2025
143
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I don't mind where I live.

I have no faith in my future but I wouldn't say my country is destroying itself. There are certain groups that would see to it if they got their way. As is the case everyhwere nowdays I suppose.
 
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mysticatedwine

mysticatedwine

rotting autistic sun
Mar 4, 2025
149
these are the ones i recognize myself in:
  • sleep too much
  • no faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself
  • getting anything done is next to impossible because of crushingdepression
  • avoid friends (to some extent)
  • feeling detached from my life
  • feel stuck between wanting to ie and wanting to live, but struggling to find a reason to live
  • lost faith in mental health professionals (or rather, the health system as a whole)
  • constant intrusive thoughts
not quite like you of course, and i probably feel these in different ways than you. but that's where i currently stand
 
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itsgone2

Member
Sep 21, 2025
80
Here's a checklist:
  • Feeling detached from my life.
Yes
  • Isolated and alone most of the time.
    Hate where I live.
Yes but I like where I live.
  • Barely able to make a proper living or even afford the essentials.
Currently employed but it will end soon and I do not see any options available and it's obviously crushing me.
  • Getting anything done is next to impossible because of crushing depression.
100%
  • Feel stuck between wanting to die and wanting to live, but struggling to find a reason to live.
Stuck only because of SI
  • Sleep too much or too little.
Too little and lay around otherwise
  • Constant intrusive thoughts.
Yes
  • Avoid friends and family.
Yes
  • Wasted entire days because of anxiety or depression.
Yes weekend in particular
  • Lost faith in mental health professionals.
No they're trying
  • No faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself.
I mean I'd say most of the world
How are you feeling now?
 
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ObsidianMidnightSky

ObsidianMidnightSky

A Void of Darkness
Aug 15, 2025
10
I am also in this post and don't like it.
 
INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
112
  • Hate where I live.
  • Barely able to make a proper living or even afford the essentials.
  • Constant intrusive thoughts.
  • Lost faith in mental health professionals.
  • No faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself.
 

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