Am I overreacting?

[Elleny]

I feel like I should end my life. I have very few friends, never had a boyfriend (I'm 32), I am asexual (and not interested in sex). I feel very lonely even if I still live with my family. Other people my age are working, getting married and having kids. I am not doing any of these things. I just hate my life. I am an art minor and when people find out they tell me that unemployment it's all my fault. I would like to study something else but my family is not supporting me anymore. I would love to take art and illustration courses but I am very short of money. I am currently given a disability allowance by my country (Italy) which is just 350€, if I need more money I need to ask my parents. I feel like a child. I am already seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist but things don't change. I feel like I should throw myself out of the window and end my life. The invalidity pension is not forever, doctors will decide if I still am allowed to get it next october, so I may loose it. I feel like there's no point in living like this.

 

[sdco23]

I'm sure the pressure to have children in a country like Italy is very high. One of the most wonderful people I've ever met was an asexual woman who was a librarian at my job. I admire her a lot because she just was good at all of her hobbies and always seemed to give the best recommendations for books and games.

 

[Elleny]

I'm sure the pressure to have children in a country like Italy is very high. One of the most wonderful people I've ever met was an asexual woman who was a librarian at my job. I admire her a lot because she just was good at all of her hobbies and always seemed to give the best recommendations for books and games.

Yes, the government and the society in general really pressures us women to have children, but women end up miserable because they need to keep working hard (or they might be fired when pregnant directly), take care of the house, take care of the babies, take care of the elderly, do everything at once. I don't want to live like this and I'm not feeling the instinct to reproduce. Still when I see all my previous classmates having babies I can't help but feeling envy and cry.

 

[itsgone2]

. Still when I see all my previous classmates having babies I can't help but feeling envy and cry.

I'm so sorry. I wish you had the life you wanted. I wish that for all of us

 

[SASU-KE]

I'm not feeling the instinct to reproduce.

This is the most important factor in deciding whether to be a parent or not. I never felt it in my life, so I never had children.

Good on you for not bowing to societal or peer pressure.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

You're not overreacting at all. Everyone has different circumstances which lead to their pain and desire to ctb. And every individual persons reasonings are valid. I really hope for your situation to improve. God bless.