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persepexa

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So since I can't seem to find any other method, I was thinking about giving myself alcohol poisoning.

I know it's not the most reliable method but people do die of it. I have a big birthday coming up at the end of the month and I have a friend from prison in Amsterdam. I was thinking I could spend the weekend with him partying for my birthday and use that as a pretence to get so plastered that I die.

This is only a rough plan atm and it would also involve me doing any drugs that come my way if I find any.

To be honest I haven't had a big night of drinking since 2021 and obviously I wasn't drinking for the 2ish years I was in prison so my tolerance has probably gone way down.

And if it works no one would even know it was a suicide. They would just think I was some idiot who got too wasted.

And if you're worried about the friend in all of this he is not a good person so I won't feel too bad.

It's just an idea I got in the shower but I'd be interested to hear people's thoughts. It's not a perfect plan by any means and even if I do everything exactly I have imagined it there is still a chance I will come out of that binge weekend alive. Any thoughts are appreciated.
 
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elenaboo25

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Oct 19, 2025
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That sounds like you're most likely going to end up with a massive hangover and possibly in hospital. Usually if someone consumes too much alcohol, the body reacts by vomiting at some point.
 
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persepexa

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That sounds like you're most likely going to end up with a massive hangover and possibly in hospital. Usually if someone consumes too much alcohol, the body reacts by vomiting at some point.
Very true. Are there any ways around this? Or ways to absorb the alcohol too quickly for this to happen?
 
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gasforme

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Jan 9, 2026
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You'll most likely black out and lose consciousness but still be active with an awful night that you don't remember.
 
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persepexa

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You'll most likely black out and lose consciousness but still be active with an awful night that you don't remember.
Is there any way to get enough into my system before blacking out? I know in Ireland there is a very strong drink called poitín that was actually illegal until 1997. It's still made illegally and can be made anywhere from 60% to 90% but I have no idea where I could get my hands on that outside of Ireland. But would something like that give me a higher chance of success?
 
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gasforme

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Is there any way to get enough into my system before blacking out? I know in Ireland there is a very strong drink called poitín that was actually illegal until 1997. It's still made illegally and can be made anywhere from 60% to 90% but I have no idea where I could get my hands on that outside of Ireland. But would something like that give me a higher chance of success?
I've had periods in my life where I drank enormous quantities of liquor just chugging it and I just woke up in with a massive hangover in a bed naked because I puked and pissed all over myself and they washed me down with a hose.

I think alcoholic death takes many sessions to weaken your body.
 
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I've had periods in my life where I drank enormous quantities of liquor just chugging it and I just woke up in with a massive hangover in a bed naked because I puked and pissed all over myself and they washed me down with a hose.

I think alcoholic death takes many sessions to weaken your body.
I've been looking up brands and apparently there's a brand in Europe called Spirytus which is roughly 95%. If I could get my hands on that and drank it fast enough that might do it. My friend probably wouldn't care enough to call an ambulance if I passed out. When I was in college I got alcohol poisoning and woke up in hospital and what I was drinking was 40%.
 
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elenaboo25

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Oct 19, 2025
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I've been looking up brands and apparently there's a brand in Europe called Spirytus which is roughly 95%. If I could get my hands on that and drank it fast enough that might do it. My friend probably wouldn't care enough to call an ambulance if I passed out. When I was in college I got alcohol poisoning and woke up in hospital and what I was drinking was 40%.
Spiritus is mostly used as a fire accelerant, it doesn't taste good whatsoever. You would have a similar effect if you drank the hand sanitizer that is usually used in hospitals.
 
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persepexa

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Spiritus is mostly used as a fire accelerant, it doesn't taste good whatsoever. You would have a similar effect if you drank the hand sanitizer that is usually used in hospitals.
Oh really? Is it that bad?
 
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Forveleth

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If you search this site there are sooooo many threads asking about this. It does not work.
 
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persepexa

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If you search this site there are sooooo many threads asking about this. It does not work.
Yeah I've seen them I'm just all out of ideas. Like I'm so desperate I really cannot continue living it's just unbearable.
 
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peacefulsleepnow

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Dec 17, 2025
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Sudden death by alcohol is highly unlikely. Death by alcohol is a long term chronic thing. Sorry for your pain.
 
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persepexa

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Sudden death by alcohol is highly unlikely. Death by alcohol is a long term chronic thing. Sorry for your pain.
Oh really? I got alcohol poisoning once when I was young and ended up in hospital. I was hoping to repeat it and do it a bit more.
 
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peacefulsleepnow

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Dec 17, 2025
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Oh really? I got alcohol poisoning once when I was young and ended up in hospital. I was hoping to repeat it and do it a bit more.
Whatever you choose, I wish you the best. It's really hard to find a method that is accessible, reliable, and peaceful.
 
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briardweller

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Nov 16, 2025
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A few weeks ago, I had 10 fireballs straight. After the 5th one they stopped tasting bad. I am very skinny and tall so it got me fucked pretty quickly. I started feeling weird and I forget all of my symptoms but I may have had alcohol poisoning. Apparently you can die in your sleep or something and I was only getting like 7 full breaths per minute. I wasn't in too much pain, hangover wasn't good but I realized damn is it that easy to kill yourself? I'm wondering if it's viable honestly. If I had drank some more, maybe I just wouldn't have woken up?
 
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Vexadin

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Sep 18, 2023
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I just had a stupid thought but can't you consume alcohol in like other ways like an enema or something? Or is this just a stupid thought lol
 
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persepexa

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Feb 7, 2025
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A few weeks ago, I had 10 fireballs straight. After the 5th one they stopped tasting bad. I am very skinny and tall so it got me fucked pretty quickly. I started feeling weird and I forget all of my symptoms but I may have had alcohol poisoning. Apparently you can die in your sleep or something and I was only getting like 7 full breaths per minute. I wasn't in too much pain, hangover wasn't good but I realized damn is it that easy to kill yourself? I'm wondering if it's viable honestly. If I had drank some more, maybe I just wouldn't have woken up?
See this is what I'm saying. I got alcohol poisoning in college and woke up in the hospital. So surely there must be a way to do it on purpose. Like if you got enough alcohol into your system faster than your body can react to it. Idk I need to think.
I just had a stupid thought but can't you consume alcohol in like other ways like an enema or something? Or is this just a stupid thought lol
no no you might be on to something. If we got something that was like 95% and found a way to consume it faster than our bodies could react to it. Idk I'm no expert on these things but it was a thought I had. The enema is a good one. (I already own one lol) So maybe there's a way…
 
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Higurashi415

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Aug 23, 2024
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A few weeks ago, I had 10 fireballs straight. After the 5th one they stopped tasting bad. I am very skinny and tall so it got me fucked pretty quickly. I started feeling weird and I forget all of my symptoms but I may have had alcohol poisoning. Apparently you can die in your sleep or something and I was only getting like 7 full breaths per minute. I wasn't in too much pain, hangover wasn't good but I realized damn is it that easy to kill yourself? I'm wondering if it's viable honestly. If I had drank some more, maybe I just wouldn't have woken up?
You could choke on your own vomit but that would be basically drowning with extra steps, with the possible and likely complication of no death and the biggest hangover of your life.
 
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persepexa

persepexa

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Feb 7, 2025
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You could choke on your own vomit but that would be basically drowning with extra steps, with the possible and likely complication of no death and the biggest hangover of your life.
That is a fear tbh. Idk my options are getting narrower every day I just need out.
 

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