Venting Afraid of going to therapy

[moon_]

It's weird for me, because I lie a lot to people about how I feel, and I'm afraid I won't be honest with my therapist. I just hate the feeling of being pitied. I had cancer that left me disabled, so I had my share of pity, and don't want any more.
I'm also suspecting I may be bipolar. One week I want to die, and actively planning it (that's why I'm here), then the next I'm happy beyond limit. Or not even happy, just forgetting al my negative emotions. It's hard to describe. But I'm also afraid that if I go to a therapist or a psychiatrist with it they will just think "Good, another person who self diagnozed from tiktok".

 

[Dinorun]

Just go see for yourself, their role is not to sit and judge you or give you pity but to take you seriously no matter what because you are hurting and try and get to the bottom of it and get you in a better state, go there with an open mind maybe act like it's the one person who you can truly tell him what's going on through your mind

In my case he couldn't really help me but still going every week and saying into words everything on my mind that I kept buried inside was so nice and freeing

 

[flowerbomb]

If possible try to talk openly. Also about your concern that you cant talk comoletely honest. A good therapist will understand exactly this struggle

 

[caramelpudding]

You can try and go see one. I don't think they would be thinking that, A good therapist won't judge you with it. and if you feel uncomfortable with a therapist you can request to change them.

Hope you find a good therapist/psychiatrist who would actively support you!

 

[Spit On My Grave]

Some people go there just for pills.
50% of adults above 40 have mental health issues. There is nothing new here or to be ashamed of.