A shitty life makes you a shitty person

[mtrx]

i wish i could take all of this crap with more grace, make the people around me remember me in good memory, but i just can't.
living miserably has made me an absolutely miserable person. i should probably use my last days here to do some good and find peace with this world but i just can't bring myself too. it's too frustrating and i don't have the energy anymore.
or maybe i'm just a bad person trying to deflect responsibility

 

[Dayrain]

@mtrx Your reflection shows that even if you did maybe rude things in the past, you did not want to do them. That you are contemplating things is good, bad persons are rarely contemplative persons. And finally you don't owe anybody anything. But I do not disagree with the title of the thread and am experiencing this myself, but look, you said it yourself, it's life that's the problem, not the other way around, that the problem is that you are a bad person.