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CatLove56

CatLove56

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Jun 30, 2018
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I'm sure I've talked about this at some point but a previous post I talked about hanging myself in a hotel but before that you know giving myself a little vacation just before doing it. Out of town being a tourist you know. But yeah I feel pathetic all the time just because basic shit that a grown man should be able to do I just have a hard time because of anxiety and depression and intrusive thoughts like suicide. 28 and even if family or friends don't give me a hard time, I'll just do it for them.

Hanging by rope seems like the cleanest way to go, it's not like it's hard to get rope and as long as you can find a reasonable height like a door I guess or if it comes down to it a tree. I feel like I told jerk to do that to any hotel employees that find me but you know I'd just like to do it somewhere reasonably nice. Actually have a place in mind.

I feel bad about family of course but I mean at some points you have to put yourself first right? Tired of it.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering, I hope that you find peace eventually.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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Yeah, all the time. Pathetic is my middle name after all.


I could go on and on about my inability to perform basic tasks, how I constantly fail at everything I do no matter how much effort I put into it, all the times in which I have fucked people over starting from child up to into adulthood, my stupidity, my shitty personality, my lack of good looks, and so on and so forth. I am still amazed that my family has not bothered just giving up on me and abandoning me at this point.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I probably get more sick of people trying to make me feel like a pathetic human. Especially parents I suppose. Especially when I feel like they expect more of me than they do or did themselves. Like- if you expect me to face up to (suspected) narcissists and shitty situations- then you ought to have lead by example. I've been understanding when you've been weak and taken the easy way out- why won't you do the same? Probably because they know in the long run, it doesn't work.

Asides from that though, it just aggravates me now. As in- I don't even want to be alive! Anything beyond breathing is kind of a favour to you! I'm not really carrying on for me anymore.

I've just become so horribly resentful and bitter. It's actually really horrible to experience. I'm getting worried that it's going to show at some point too.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
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I always feel like a pathetic person.
 
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Toodles!

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Jul 17, 2024
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Yes. Mostly because I made my own problems happen. I had the most perfect life.
 
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avalonisburning

Laugh again with me
May 12, 2024
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I've always aspired to be a comedian, like my father. Unfortunately, that dream was never meant to be. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't come up with a greater joke than his only son.
 
acey

acey

Above an abyss - funeral worker
Sep 14, 2023
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Ever? More like, always.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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No, I'm not the one who is pathetic. What is pathetic is society and the system
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

death wont return my calls
Mar 20, 2023
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I don't simply feel. I am.
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
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No, I'm not the one who is pathetic. What is pathetic is society and the system
Same. I don't feel pathetic, nor am I pathetic. Instead, society, the system and this world are pathetic. I deserve a better world and reality. I feel sad and mad that this is the world that I have to live in and that it's like this. Honestly, it saddens me to see the state of humanity. Man is born free but exists in chains. Work is modern day slavery and people have to work away their lives to survive. They need to become slaves to the system for survival purposes. I believe that I deserve better than a fate of wageslavery. Why should I have to submit to wageslavery as well?
 
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frost_

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Jun 6, 2024
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I've always aspired to be a comedian, like my father. Unfortunately, that dream was never meant to be. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't come up with a greater joke than his only son.
I feel bad I laughed at that. I thought it was clever.

But yeah, to chime in with my response to the general thread question, in general like someone else said here, once you miss out on certain life experiences or miss out on making certain mistakes while you're young, it gets harder to catch up. If you isolate when it gets too hard, it becomes a reinforcing habit. It certainly can feel very pathetic but I also think I was dealt a pretty hard hand.
 
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