yearning for lovers suicide anyone else relate?

[braingetti]

i think the most romantic thing someone could do with their partner is to ctb together. i think it would be better than just by myself because then i would have more courage if i had someone else. anyone else relate?

 

[ihateittoo]

i would love to ctb with someone I was dating. I mentioned one time to a previous girlfriend that I always kept a way to kill myself ready just in case and she freaked out. I've never been able to talk in person with someone who feels the same way about suicide I do. It would also be nice to not have to die alone. I feel like it would be a lot easier if I was holding someones hand while I did it

 

[SASU-KE]

Yes. My pull up bar is rated for around 200 kilograms. I've always thought two or three people could do FSH on this at the same time.

Romantic, I know.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Then you will this story.

Elderly couple made suicide pact before Whitby cliff deaths - inquest

A Northallerton inquest hears David and Susan Jeffcock planned to take their own lives.

www.bbc.com

 

[SASU-KE]

Then you will this story.

Elderly couple made suicide pact before Whitby cliff deaths - inquest

A Northallerton inquest hears David and Susan Jeffcock planned to take their own lives.

www.bbc.com

You know what's funny? A few years ago I used to see a very old couple. Like I'm talking at least 200 years old. Both of them were bent over in such a way, and I'm not exaggerating, their head was only a few feet from the ground. Both of them used to walk around in the neighborhood I live in. They'd always walk around together.Those are the kind of couples where if one passes, the other one will pass within a few months too.I think about them from time to time. I'm sure they had a good life.

 

[supremacyofdeath]

I always wanted my partner to go with me. I do think it's romantic and even when she was horribly depressed and did want to die she would always hate the idea when I brought it up. Romance really is dead.

 

[ThroughTheLight]

Yeah that would be a dream, but unfortunately, I'm just too chopped and pathetic for anyone to like me, especially in a romantic way lol. Maybe if I had someone willing to ctb with me I'd actually be able to go through with it...

 

[Starfall]

It just seems like it would be much more peaceful with someone I love, im always scared to be alone, especially when I'm dying

 

[Acidic_Fries]

I yearn for it too bud. Problem is that i'm too autistic to successfully get someone to fall in love with me. Romance is non-existent for autistic people you see.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

i think the most romantic thing someone could do with their partner is to ctb together. i think it would be better than just by myself because then i would have more courage if i had someone else. anyone else relate?

It sounds romantic on paper. At least it was in romeo and juliet

Buy in practice... how are you supposed to make each other happy if youre both dead?

 

[EndlessRage]

It sounds romantic on paper. At least it was in romeo and juliet

Buy in practice... how are you supposed to make each other happy if youre both dead?

I personally wouldn't want to be responsible for the death of someone i love or to persuade them with words to do it with me just because my life is shit, it doesn't sound like a reasonable idea. But it would rather be much more nice if i'm dying and i'm close to someone i love and care about.

 

[saturn1ne]

yes but i'm too ugly to find a partner which is one of the reasons why i wanna ctb in the first place. love my life lmao.

 

[burninghill]

Part of me wouldn't mind having a suicide partner. Doesn't have to be my romantic partner, but I've made artwork the connection to things like assisted suicide before and it's always intrigued me. What it means to end someone's suffering, even if it means ending them.

I really feel for the people in this thread who think they're ugly. I promise that you're not. You're worthy of love and partnership.

 

[woofwag]

Yeah, I mean I think there's a partner section on here for good reason. I think we all have a natural inclination to not want to die alone whether aware of it or not. It's one of the highest forms of dedication to die for/with someone.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Yeah, I mean I think there's a partner section on here for good reason. I think we all have a natural inclination to not want to die alone whether aware of it or not. It's one of the highest forms of dedication to die for/with someone.

We live and die alone though. That is the reality

I personally wouldn't want to be responsible for the death of someone i love or to persuade them with words to do it with me just because my life is shit, it doesn't sound like a reasonable idea. But it would rather be much more nice if i'm dying and i'm close to someone i love and care about.

I always pictured it going the other way

Girl wants to kill herself, and so do i, but she doesnt want me to kill myself

So i lie to her and tell her ill live. Then kill myself alone after she goes first

 

[woofwag]

We live and die alone though. That is the reality

I always pictured it going the other way

Girl wants to kill herself, and so do i, but she doesnt want me to kill myself

So i lie to her and tell her ill live. Then kill myself alone after she goes first

I don't believe that at all. Be as doomer as you want but I've felt close to people, close enough for a moment we shared the same soul. We were all born with the innate need to have physical contact and connection; we can stay alone for quite some time or die alone, but that doesn't erase the fact there's plenty of time in our life when we are around people and connected to them.

Also plenty of people die with others, just look at the link someone posted about the elderly couple who killed themselves together.

 

[hmnow]

i think the most romantic thing someone could do with their partner is to ctb together. i think it would be better than just by myself because then i would have more courage if i had someone else. anyone else relate?

I have thought that as well. Last thoughts together as they blend intondarkness together

It would not have to be someone super close but someone you have feelings for

Yes. My pull up bar is rated for around 200 kilograms. I've always thought two or three people could do FSH on this at the same time.

Romantic, I know.

That would attract me to carry it out

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I don't believe that at all. Be as doomer as you want but I've felt close to people, close enough for a moment we shared the same soul. We were all born with the innate need to have physical contact and connection; we can stay alone for quite some time or die alone, but that doesn't erase the fact there's plenty of time in our life when we are around people and connected to them.

Also plenty of people die with others, just look at the link someone posted about the elderly couple who killed themselves together.

and what happened after that moment?

Alone again right?

Everything you have will be taken from you, every connection severed

If you live expecting anymore than that you end up dead

some ppl have a hard time surviving that lesson, the realization that they really do live alone and die alone. so theyre here

Its the fear of this reality that couples want to die together. Not because of any lasting connection, but because of the fear that the illusion will be broken

Well... at least you dont have to worry about it when youre dead i guess

 

[woofwag]

and what happened after that moment?

Alone again right?

Everything you have will be taken from you, every connection severed

If you live expecting anymore than that you end up dead

some ppl have a hard time surviving that lesson, the realization that they really do live alone and die alone. so theyre here

Its the fear of this reality that couples want to die together. Not because of any lasting connection, but because of the fear that the illusion will be broken

Well... at least you dont have to worry about it when youre dead i guess

No, not alone again. I'm a system and we both introjected one another. We had moments where we psychically hugged from hundreds of miles away but we both felt it and it was clear it was real from the timing of when we opened our eyes on call and our perfect descriptions of how it felt even after we ended call. Say what you will about that, I didn't believe such a thing could happen until it happened to me.

Even for non-systems, there is comfort in the reality of our memories and thoughts. It's just a weird miserable doomer thing to do, to try to convince someone else that they're doomed to loneliness forever. I didn't say anything about that specifically so idk why you targeted me in the first place.

But just so we're clear, I do believe we are all made of the same stuff and exist connected through that. Even in death there won't be permanent loneliness and having everything "taken from you." Those connections will always be there, every part of us will be dispersed through the world because matter can never be created nor destroyed. And I love that, I find a lot of peace in it.

I'll be sad to leave the people I love when I
ctb, but I feel a bit better about it knowing I'll always be with them.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

No, not alone again. I'm a system and we both introjected one another. We had moments where we psychically hugged from hundreds of miles away but we both felt it and it was clear it was real from the timing of when we opened our eyes on call and our perfect descriptions of how it felt even after we ended call. Say what you will about that, I didn't believe such a thing could happen until it happened to me.

Even for non-systems, there is comfort in the reality of our memories and thoughts. It's just a weird miserable doomer thing to do, to try to convince someone else that they're doomed to loneliness forever. I didn't say anything about that specifically so idk why you targeted me in the first place.

But just so we're clear, I do believe we are all made of the same stuff and exist connected through that. Even in death there won't be permanent loneliness and having everything "taken from you." Those connections will always be there, every part of us will be dispersed through the world because matter can never be created nor destroyed. And I love that, I find a lot of peace in it.

I'll be sad to leave the people I love when I
ctb, but I feel a bit better about it knowing I'll always be with them.

I didnt target you

I just wanted to rant a bit

Ah if only i was psychic too

Edit:
Hmm why did you think i meant doomed to loneliness?

Even when the connection is severed, not all ppl kill themselves

Some ppl are internally strong, or find other reasons to stay alive, even if it drives them crazy

Kinda just meant connections are temporary and those that dont cope, die

Didnt mean to sound doomery and scare you

 

[Kokonoe]

i think the most romantic thing someone could do with their partner is to ctb together. i think it would be better than just by myself because then i would have more courage if i had someone else. anyone else relate?

not entirely the same thing but my oldest sister and i always said that if we ever decided to commit suicide we'd do it together. it was oddly very comforting. but now her life got better and she's not suicidal but i still am. the thought of her life going on without me after my death is deeply upsetting. i wish so badly we could've died together. it's the best way i could ever hope to go out. and now i just have to die alone and miserable instead.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

not entirely the same thing but my oldest sister and i always said that if we ever decided to commit suicide we'd do it together. it was oddly very comforting. but now her life got better and she's not suicidal but i still am. the thought of her life going on without me after my death is deeply upsetting. i wish so badly we could've died together. it's the best way i could ever hope to go out. and now i just have to die alone and miserable instead.

Is that how you look at it?

The way i see it. This story proves you have a way out

Your sister got out didnt she?

 

[Kokonoe]

Is that how you look at it?

The way i see it. This story proves you have a way out

Your sister got out didnt she?

i'm not my sister. not even remotely. she gets to have a good life. not me.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

i'm not my sister. not even remotely. she gets to have a good life. not me.

Thats what the present is yes

But you shared that bond before, close to someone who got out, and how you separated in circumstance cant have been over night

Just gotta see where you two started to separate and follow her steps

And when you reach her youll be together again

 

[Kokonoe]

Thats what the present is yes

But you shared that bond before, close to someone who got out, and how you separated in circumstance cant have been over night

Just gotta see where you two started to separate and follow her steps

And when you reach her youll be together again

no, i will never be together with her again. i'm sorry but that's just not possible. i'm not a part of her life anymore.
and i can't follow her footsteps. i'm not as privileged as her. i don't get to just do what she does. it upsets me when she tells me to just force a better life to happen when she knows i can't do anything she did. i'm powerless.
i don't get a good job, i can't work. i don't get any sort of independence, i'm disabled. i don't have anyone who loves me. i don't have any friends. i lost all my hobbies and i can't get them back anymore. my life is completely empty and it's too late. i'm inherently worthless. i've tried so, so hard for years and years and my life has never gotten better. i'll never have a good life no matter what i do. meanwhile she gets her good life handed to her on a silver platter. she doesn't deserve a single thing she has. someone who abuses and abandons their family doesn't deserve to have all the good things in the world, and they especially don't deserve it when they never worked or struggled for it for even a second.

 

[1nocares]

Yeah. I fear being open enough to even express that, though. I don't know. I think i'd be shut down if the idea was brought up, although i do tend to go for likeminded individuals

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

no, i will never be together with her again. i'm sorry but that's just not possible. i'm not a part of her life anymore.
and i can't follow her footsteps. i'm not as privileged as her. i don't get to just do what she does. it upsets me when she tells me to just force a better life to happen when she knows i can't do anything she did. i'm powerless.
i don't get a good job, i can't work. i don't get any sort of independence, i'm disabled. i don't have anyone who loves me. i don't have any friends. i lost all my hobbies and i can't get them back anymore. my life is completely empty and it's too late. i'm inherently worthless. i've tried so, so hard for years and years and my life has never gotten better. i'll never have a good life no matter what i do. meanwhile she gets her good life handed to her on a silver platter. she doesn't deserve a single thing she has. someone who abuses and abandons their family doesn't deserve to have all the good things in the world, and they especially don't deserve it when they never worked or struggled for it for even a second.

I guess i didnt know enough about your life

I just let my dreamer side out of its little bird cage and it talked a bit too much

Im sorry

I still think a lot of the stuff you mentioned here can be fixed. But youll have to figure it out on your own

 

[Kokonoe]

I guess i didnt know enough about your life

I just let my dreamer side out of its little bird cage and it talked a bit too much

Im sorry

I still think a lot of the stuff you mentioned here can be fixed. But youll have to figure it out on your own

i'm sorry for getting so heated. it's not your fault in any way and none of it was directed at you. my sister is just sort of a touchy subject for me. and it's hard not to feel hopeless.

and maybe it is fixable. but i've tried so hard for years on end and i still haven't managed to change anything. so it doesn't feel possible. even if it was, i don't think i want to live enough for it to be worth the effort it would take.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

i'm sorry for getting so heated. it's not your fault in any way and none of it was directed at you. my sister is just sort of a touchy subject for me. and it's hard not to feel hopeless.

and maybe it is fixable. but i've tried so hard for years on end and i still haven't managed to change anything. so it doesn't feel possible. even if it was, i don't think i want to live enough for it to be worth the effort it would take.

dont worry

 

[Bishop]

No. I would never be selfish enough to even remotely think of the idea. To take another life by asking or suggesting, whatever. If I love someone, I want them to go on. Not dragged down with me.