Would you kill your self if you were me?

[I’vehadenough]

I was very beautiful, then I got disfigured suddenly. I am crippled with severe anxiety and depression. I can't function, so my mom has to take care of me. There is no cure or remedies for the disfigurement and I can't take psych drugs because of my sensitivity to them. I've been to shrinks and they can't help

 

[MachineGunDani]

If u don't mind me asking how we're u disfigured? Botched plastic surgery?

 

[MachineGunDani]

And is ur anxiety and depression stemmed from the disfigurement? Or was it there before?

 

[ctoan]

suffering is subjective man

there are people who are in the wheelchair and look like the elephant man yet enjoy life to the fullest

and there are celebreties, millionairs who kill themself

in the end its on you alone to decide

 

[MachineGunDani]

suffering is objective man

there are people who are in the wheelchair and look like the elephant yet enjoy life to the fullest

and there are celebreties, millionairs who kill themself

in the end its on you alone to decide

Very true! Very well put

 

[I’vehadenough]

No. A toxic reaction to chemicals that shrunk my eyes and made my skin look melted

 

[I’vehadenough]

I've had it before, now it's way worse

 

[ctoan]

No. A toxic reaction to chemicals that shrunk my eyes and made my skin look melted

how did they shrunk your eyes?

 

[hunter_lewis]

No. A toxic reaction to chemicals that shrunk my eyes and made my skin look melted

are you in chronic physical pain? Can you see properly and eat and smell properly?
If I weren't in physical pain and everything else worked I wouldn't mind too much I suppose. My body is trying to kill me every day with physical pain-I would take any disfigurement over it any day. But it is up to you.
I have never been too beautiful anyway so beauty to me is not worth much. I live in a country where there are many people who cover their faces and so no one sees what they look like

 

[MachineGunDani]

Oh boy that sounds fucking horrible. I'm so sorry! I can't imagine what that's like. <3 hugs

 

[ctoan]

Very true! Very well put

i meant *subjective* instead of objective though

 

[Schopenhauer]

You shouldn't ask others this kind of question. Just ask yourself whether you want to go on living or not. If you're unsure, give life a chance. There's no coming back.

 

[MachineGunDani]

Everyone has different reasons to ctb. People might view ur reason as shallow or not as severe as their issue but ur suffering is just that, It's YOURS! Until someone has been in your exact shoes they can't tell u ur reason is stupid. People don't realize how much their physical appearance can effect them.

 

[Revok]

suffering is objective man

*subjective* is what you meant I believe. Objective is the exact opposite. Just trying to avoid confusion.

I'll second what you said though. If your life is worth living should not be for anyone to decide but yourself. The amount of gatekeeping and commitees deciding this for you even in countries where euthanasia is legal is ridiculous.

 

[MachineGunDani]

i meant *subjective* instead of objective though

Lmao I was going to say! I almost googled objective and subjective. But I was always told the "o" in objective stands for observe, things u can physically see.

 

[I’vehadenough]

how did they shrunk your eyes?

They are smaller and rounded

 

[MachineGunDani]

Beauty is more than physical looks. I think most agree that a personality can make or break a persons looks. It just makes me sad when someone wants to ctb for a physical appearance issue bc they think no one will love them bc that isn't true. Just takes time to find the few good people in the world who value you for you. A disfigurement of any kind wouldn't stop me from loving anyone.

 

[ctoan]

They are smaller and rounded

do other people see this aswell?

 

[I’vehadenough]

Ye

do other people see this aswell?

yes

 

[I’vehadenough]

Beauty is more than physical looks. I think most agree that a personality can make or break a persons looks. It just makes me sad when someone wants to ctb for a physical appearance issue bc they think no one will love them bc that isn't true. Just takes time to find the few good people in the world who value you for you. A disfigurement of any kind wouldn't stop me from loving anyone.

So you would date someone who has a melted face and no beauty?

 

[I’vehadenough]

Everyone has different reasons to ctb. People might view ur reason as shallow or not as severe as their issue but ur suffering is just that, It's YOURS! Until someone has been in your exact shoes they can't tell u ur reason is stupid. People don't realize how much their physical appearance can effect them.

Shallow?? Lol I don't even look human anymore

 

[I’vehadenough]

are you in chronic physical pain? Can you see properly and eat and smell properly?
If I weren't in physical pain and everything else worked I wouldn't mind too much I suppose. My body is trying to kill me every day with physical pain-I would take any disfigurement over it any day. But it is up to you.
I have never been too beautiful anyway so beauty to me is not worth much. I live in a country where there are many people who cover their faces and so no one sees what they look like

Where do you live?

 

[I’vehadenough]

Oh boy that sounds fucking horrible. I'm so sorry! I can't imagine what that's like. <3 hugs

Thank you for understanding

 

[I’vehadenough]

My emotional pain is so bad, I can't cook, drive it function really and my mom has to force me to eat

 

[I’vehadenough]

And is ur anxiety and depression stemmed from the disfigurement? Or was it there before?

It was there before but now it's out of control

 

[Final Escape]

I'll admit I would have a hard time not wanting to ctb in your situation. I dont know what I would do. Hopefully your mom is nice that helps.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I'll admit I would have a hard time not wanting to ctb in your situation. I dont know what I would do. Hopefully your mom is nice that helps.

Yes. Why do you want to ctb?

 

[MachineGunDani]

Thank you for understanding

That's why we come here!! Ur always welcome! <3

 

[Final Escape]

Yes. Why do you want to ctb?

I've got problems being able to form relationships. I have an insecure attachment style. I guess this is probably as serious as your issue but it's less immediately obvious to other people that I have this.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I've got problems being able to form relationships. I have an insecure attachment style. I guess this is probably as serious as your issue but it's less immediately obvious to other people that I have this.

Yeah.that sounds lonely. Are you going to ctb?