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Hecubaa

Hecubaa

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Sep 30, 2024
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I'm sorry for being petty and posting this, but this is my only safe space and I need to let it out.

In January, I had to take a week off of work to visit my family because my grandma's health has been declining and we were all worried for her. She's turning 90 this year and I haven't seen her in 3 years at the time. I decided to take a week off of work to travel across the world to see her because she is the person who raised me and she's really sweet and deserves more than I have given her. Being with my family was really difficult and stressful because I don't get along with my parents and we have very different outlooks on life overall. I very much so feel like a failure in their eyes. I went from a straight As student to a bum, more or less. It's also hard for me to be away from my dog and he's only service in training so I couldn't take him with me. Things didn't go well while I was at home and I was also short financially. I planned on going to work (bartending) the day I came back yet got fired when I came to work because I got accused of giving drugs to a customer. It took me a few weeks go figure out where that accusation came from or who the customer was but I know for a fact that drugs didn't even come up in conversation with that person. Either way, I've begged for my job back multiple times and it didn't work. I am currently working 2 other jobs and still making half the money I made at my previous job. I can barely afford rent or my animals's needs, let alone my own. I need to go. To CTB. There's no point in this.
 

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