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Win 100 billion euros but never again have the option of suicide?

  • Yes

    Votes: 36 53.7%
  • No

    Votes: 31 46.3%

  • Total voters
    67
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,906
Win 100 billion euros but never again have the option of suicide?

Yes?
No?
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
6,641
Yes, of course I would choose the money. I could live an extremely obese and unhealthy lifestyle still.
 
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doomedforsure

i cant handle this shir
Oct 13, 2025
58
its not the matter of money ;-;
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,219
I would rather suicide because suicide is my top goal , my only rational goal

There is nothing that could ever change my mind

They say you have to live or do this or want that

Why do I have to live or do that? I don't.

The only things I want is to avoid unbearable pain and kill myself ( this bag of 30 trillion cells they call a human body that is a torture chamber i'm trapped in)

Nothing really matters except avoiding intolerable pain or extreme suffering or extreme torture.

And to me it matters to escape this hell, and also undo this horrible imposition .

Many more reasons a book to explain it why to me only suicide is my only rational goal the only thing that really matters

How fast did this year 2025 fly by? In a blink its 2026. We'll all be dead soon and never exist again. Another reason why nothing matters.

But i can't go through any extreme torture and suicide to permanent Non-existence is the only way to avoid torture

the crap pleasure addictions are fleeting. but the horrible thing is 1 second of the worst pain can seem to go on for years.

They repeatedly tell us that we have to seek pleasure, enjoy yourself, be happy.

Pain far outweighs any shit pleasure

Horrible things far outweigh any pleasure addictions
 
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NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay ⋅ he/him
Nov 21, 2024
739
There are things that might make me consider giving up the possibility of suicide, but money ain't one of them 😭
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
237
Money will probably fix some things (e. g. give opportunity to move to different country), but in general it doesn't matter.
 
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metfan647

Student
Jun 12, 2025
177
Money would not keep my thoughts at bay once I get even older and weaker in 10 years time.

I'd have a great time with some free money now but I'd revert to my default state soon enough.
 
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Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
351
I'll take the money and take it from there I suppose 🤔💭 and probably change my user to lucky777
 
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Tautochrome

Tautochrome

Exploder
Nov 22, 2025
63
Nuh uh, material goods aren't THAT appealing. I need a way out. So unless there exists some loophole that still allows for death at a chosen time, I don't want the money.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
I'd just pay someone to kill me
 
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ScaredCutter

ScaredCutter

put a red heart if u love espoir city
Oct 16, 2025
173
i love money too much and i love spending heaps amounts. its so much more in my currency

id probably even get huge benefits from being insanely rich too.

its silly that i view money as a solution for me because, theres so many things i want in life that id live forever to get everything i want.
but thats just me.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,111
Yes, I would take wealth over suicide. The decades of drudgery ahead of me post-life failure are terrifying. If I could do what I wanted all day without money or work stress I'd be fine
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,906
Mon rêve est un suicide sans douleur et très rapide...like euthanasia
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
102
I'd take the money only if there was a loophole that after spending some I could use some of it to have myself ended.
 
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LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

F♡ck Around And F♤nd Out
Jul 20, 2025
542
I'd take the money only if there was a loophole that after spending some I could use some of it to have myself ended.
*Waves*

No, not worth the money/risk in my case.
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
102
*Waves*

No, not worth the money/risk in my case.
That's fair. I have the type of luck that I likely wouldn't be able to end myself with the money. There was just a tiny bit of hope that I could do some good with it before leaving hell.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,043
I just want non-existence, I'd never wish for this dreadful, futile existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what.

I find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way, to me existence itself is the true problem and I'd never wish for any of this, I just want to be unconscious for all eternity with all gone and torgotten about, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, for me non-existence is just the only relief, only in non-existence will I be at peace, to me existence just feels like the most terrible, cruel mistake.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,906
hmnow

hmnow

Member has ceased to exist.
Jul 29, 2025
265
with that money you could have a quite a grand self-execution
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
6,641
Elon Musk could save 5 lives with his money. Someone has to tell him that. He will obviously make our wish come true...
 
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OnceTheHappiestMan

OnceTheHappiestMan

Member
Dec 6, 2025
66
It's not a matter of money. I have enough to live a pleasant life but it's not possible.

But as others said if there's a loophole there, then I'll take it!
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,906
Ce n'est pas une question d'argent. J'ai de quoi vivre confortablement, mais ce n'est pas possible.

Mais comme d'autres l'ont dit, s'il y a une faille, alors je la saisirai !
Choose what?
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

(O__O)==>(X__X)
Oct 12, 2024
1,043
I think I can endure 60 years of pain if I can make an entire mini city for homeless people, disabled people, mentally ill people, sex workers. Have them learn trades, programming, art, cooking to thrive in this shitty world that used and abused them. Adopt every single child in the shitty foster system. ETC. You get the idea.

Yes I'd take 100 billion euros. My problem is with the world, if I can change the world, I would still have a problem with myself but I could endure.
 
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