Will you die by suicide? Yes, no or don't know?

[Confusedsoul12345]

I surely want to die but I doubtful that I will ever gather the courage to actually CTB.As during the news of wellness checks I threw away my SN I don't even have any way available for CTB right now but one thing for sure I seriously don't want to live as there is 0 pleasure in life for me but I have all the pain possible.

 

[Fall_Apart]

Absolutely yes. Natural death is to be avoided at all costs for me. There is no valid reason to wait for a natural death, because obviously you will end up trapped in a rotten body that will have to depend on others even just to do the most basic things, in addition to the physical pain and the disease that advances inexorably. The more time passes, the worse things will get, there is no escape. I have made my assessment, and for me, having reached 50 years old simply means being out of time.

 

[softtodie]

Yes it feels inevitable now no set date but I know it will happen

 

[gothbird]

I plan for July.

 

[hereornot]

Who knows?

 

[northevelyn]

Yeah - that I relate as well

I have an approach that I take two steps forward and then one step back. Eventually, two steps forward will mean I step off the stool, and there is no step back possible

I am at the stage where I have booked a hotel room

I want to make a plan but I'm unable to to do much in my current state

 

[Jade10666]

I want to make a plan but I'm unable to to do much in my current state

what type of plan do you want to make?

 

[northevelyn]

what type of plan do you want to make?

I'm wanting to use an, but it's hard to navigate how to get some, and my husband would notice the delivery

 

[Jade10666]

I'm wanting to use an, but it's hard to navigate how to get some, and my husband would notice the delivery

I am thinking you are talk about SN? I don't know that world - my choice is hanging because its easy to do

It is a difficult to navigate

 

[ma0]

Fucking hell, is the sky blue?

 

[northevelyn]

I am thinking you are talk about SN? I don't know that world - my choice is hanging because its easy to do

It is a difficult to navigate

Meant sn, my bad. Typo

 

[Jade10666]

Meant sn, my bad. Typo

no worries - my spelling is awful and I end up going to the grocery store with things on list like dead squirrel - because of bad spelling AND spell correct

 

[northevelyn]

no worries - my spelling is awful and I end up going to the grocery store with things on list like dead squirrel - because of bad spelling AND spell correct

I've considered hanging too. I'll take whatever at this point

 

[PairOfAirJordan1’s]

Genuine 50/50

 

[Wilt-On-High]

I don't know to be honest...except
I'm probably more likely to Commit Suicide
and if I do continue to live my life I'll probably get a heart attack or go into Cardiac Arrest...well I mean someone predicted what age I'm going to die...(32) so I'm guessing those two

 

[Linda]

It's a 50% chance. If my husband dies before me yes. Otherwise, no (unless I finish up with some unpleasant, incurable disease, in which case I might shorten the process of dying).

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I would be really disappointed if I would die in any other way than by full hanging. This should be my highlight at the end.

 

[dead-orchids]

I hope so, though I'm still trying to figure out how, when, where, etc

 

[seizmic_purple]

I am pretty sure I did read it here - but when I was still lurking and not a member. Sorry I wish I would be more specific - but I will look up in journals and send you something if I find it

Thank you! I saw that you sent me something, but it appears I am not yet able to access private conversations. Hopefully this changes soon :)

 

[dreamsofhome]

I'm not really sure. I'm in poor health, so there's a chance that I could be taken out by that before I am able to ctb. But unless that, or some accident happens, then yes. No solid plans right now but feel like I'm getting closer every day.

 

[Britney Spears]

With SN and I was determined, if I didn't know they would do an autopsy on me afterwards, it would be mandatory in case of CTB. I'm terrified of autopsies. I can't stop looking for people who have been sent to the morgue still alive when they were thought to be dead. And I'm terrified of failing with the SN or being left dead by mistake. Being sent to the autopsy alive (presumably dead) and dismembered while I feel the pain. It would be weird, but who knows. I would still die in the autopsy. It terrifies me. There are several cases that wake up in the morgue. If I knew that SN would leave me 100% dead before the autopsy, I would take it, but I don't know anymore. There are few cases, but especially in my country, Spain, there are stories of people sent to the morgue for false deaths and resuscitated there just before the autopsy. You can look them up online. Doctors are stupid, even when it comes to determining whether you're dead or not. It tears me apart. Who knows how many people declared dead had autopsies performed while they were still alive?

 

[erqum]

I think but i hope no, but i pray to don't have a wretched existence despite it's the most likely way for me to end

 

[Dongle]

I am pretty damn sure I'm going to at some point.

 

[erqum]

I think but i hope no, but i pray to don't have a wretched existence despite it's the most likely way for me to end

With SN and I was determined, if I didn't know they would do an autopsy on me afterwards, it would be mandatory in case of CTB. I'm terrified of autopsies. I can't stop looking for people who have been sent to the morgue still alive when they were thought to be dead. And I'm terrified of failing with the SN or being left dead by mistake. Being sent to the autopsy alive (presumably dead) and dismembered while I feel the pain. It would be weird, but who knows. I would still die in the autopsy. It terrifies me. There are several cases that wake up in the morgue. If I knew that SN would leave me 100% dead before the autopsy, I would take it, but I don't know anymore. There are few cases, but especially in my country, Spain, there are stories of people sent to the morgue for false deaths and resuscitated there just before the autopsy. You can look them up online. Doctors are stupid, even when it comes to determining whether you're dead or not. It tears me apart. Who knows how many people declared dead had autopsies performed while they were still alive?

Thank you you unlocked me a fear No I'm kidding but i'll propably think about it If i commit suicide

 

[leloyon]

Provided that some unforeseeable tragedy doesn't occur, it's an inevitability. I simply cannot see myself living past thirty, I will have committed suicide by then.

 

[SecretDissociation]

Probably, very probably. Could be next Monday. Who knows I like to keep myself guessing

 

[sallylilyhannah]

I know I definitely will. It may happen in a couple of years or it may even happen later. I know a guy who recently died quickly and painlessly. He was 74 with no family, plenty of "friends" but "friends" aren't gonna wipe your butt when you're stinking up your bedsores and can't move. He had a bad injury that was preventing him from working and he was then diagnosed with cancer. I know he made the right decision for himself and so do the people he was renting from who had him cremated and contacted his estranged kids to pick up his things. I think with more people not having kids and the total breakdown of society basically, this the right option for many. True places like the UK and Canada now provide end of life care but I can't imagine this will go on for longnand do you really want some stranger drugging you up all day long.

And even for people who are not terminally ill, the fact is that the world is quite unpleasant currently and I for one see absolutely no sigma about moving on and finding out what's on the other side at a time and in a way that's my choice. I don't need any judgment from all the same hypocrites who are like guppies turning the world into a living hellhole in the first place. I don't like living on a planet that's being raped by humans and I don't like the tech, and I'm too tired to run a homestead, I tired all that and I never worked out for me and now I don't want it anymore. Obviously I don't say this in public since the normies will panic and go into self-righteous mode. Not sure what there is about death to be afraid of personally. The soul's desire is for life, this is true, but when the soul has processed all it's unmet needs, the the world has little else to offer. I van around in one of the most beautiful places in the world and the people here are pleasant enough, but I don't want anything more on this planet. So for me when my dogs go, I'm going too and I am soooooooo looking forward to peace and eternal rest.

 

[belowaveragefish]

100% yes. If I don't this year, my inevitable failing health will convince me

 

[Linda]

I know I definitely will. It may happen in a couple of years or it may even happen later. I know a guy who recently died quickly and painlessly. He was 74 with no family, plenty of "friends" but "friends" aren't gonna wipe your butt when you're stinking up your bedsores and can't move. He had a bad injury that was preventing him from working and he was then diagnosed with cancer. I know he made the right decision for himself and so do the people he was renting from who had him cremated and contacted his estranged kids to pick up his things. I think with more people not having kids and the total breakdown of society basically, this the right option for many. True places like the UK and Canada now provide end of life care but I can't imagine this will go on for longnand do you really want some stranger drugging you up all day long.

And even for people who are not terminally ill, the fact is that the world is quite unpleasant currently and I for one see absolutely no sigma about moving on and finding out what's on the other side at a time and in a way that's my choice. I don't need any judgment from all the same hypocrites who are like guppies turning the world into a living hellhole in the first place. I don't like living on a planet that's being raped by humans and I don't like the tech, and I'm too tired to run a homestead, I tired all that and I never worked out for me and now I don't want it anymore. Obviously I don't say this in public since the normies will panic and go into self-righteous mode. Not sure what there is about death to be afraid of personally. The soul's desire is for life, this is true, but when the soul has processed all it's unmet needs, the the world has little else to offer. I van around in one of the most beautiful places in the world and the people here are pleasant enough, but I don't want anything more on this planet. So for me when my dogs go, I'm going too and I am soooooooo looking forward to peace and eternal rest.

I see that is your first post. Welcome to SaSu.

 

[maneose]

maybe.. yes no maybe so