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dontwakemeup

Warlock
Nov 11, 2024
779
I pray this is my last year! I hate this life and currently waiting for a natural death. I have failed attempts, and it's not worth the problems if I fail again. How much longer do I have to go?? I'm tired of waking up. Hopefully, we all can catch our bus by new years eve!!
 
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Dusk till dawn

Dusk till dawn

Experienced
Sep 7, 2018
274
I can see myself making up to mid 2026 depending on my financial circumstances, but i'm convinced i won't be here after mid 2026, i know what i'm doing this time so odds of dying are not like when i was a kid, i've already survived death by sheer dumb luck many times, eventually an attempt will click or i'll be pushed into giving up my standards and accepting anti-pesticides or hanging
 
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knickknack81

Student
Apr 28, 2025
130
Really tough to say. 2025 has been a super difficult year and I have had so may depressed thoughts of CTB for a while now. I have a few methods I could use but actually committing to it and of course SI being a very difficult thing to get over. Still, every night I wish to go to sleep and not wake up (as many of us do). I just can't see myself going on and on feeling the way I have been for the last several months. Its really tough right now.
 
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LostChan

Member
Sep 21, 2023
9
I probably will tho it will be my last year. I've been telling myself to wait for silksong and it will get better but it hasn't so I will either leave early 2026 or late this year
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
443
I've got big changes coming up in that year and I want to stick around out of curiosity, for better or for the worse.

Also I plan on finishing the game I'm working on currently in 2026 so there's that too.
 
westerly_merlin

westerly_merlin

Just why?
Aug 13, 2025
22
Not sure yet, I have a stressful event for next month, I can't make pans past it,

It depends how that goes whether I CTB this year or try and build a new future.
 
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INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
75
Probably, given how the past 15 years or so of suicidal ideation have gone. Potentially not, but probably.
 
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Aya&Dazy

Member
Nov 11, 2022
66
Yes, depression get better and I still have things that I wanna do but I still wanna die on my own hand one day.
 
salviap

salviap

I am no longer interested in the world
Apr 7, 2024
23
There is a lot i still need to do,
whether it would concern my education, job, etcetera.
It poses difficult for me to end my life when i am still thinking rationally. i am afraid to end it, despite the many times i have told myself i would.
anyway, probably will still be here. i have plenty of things to do.
 
killingmyselfcore

killingmyselfcore

TCCer
Oct 18, 2024
17
maybe not. me and the one i love might ctb within some months, unsure of how everything could go though.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,059
Scary thought, I cannot picture another year like this one. November last year is when I became suicidal, don't know if I can do this November, so I'll have everything prepared to leave, in case.
 
oatmeal.n

oatmeal.n

ive tried almost everything, nothing worked
Apr 28, 2025
73
either killing myself august-september, or when the snowfall hits, so probably not?
 
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CMPIETRZAK

New Member
Aug 16, 2024
4
Very sadly, yes. In my judgement at the moment, I rate the never ending pain that I feel to be less than the pain I'll cause some others by leaving. My wife in particular will never truly recover, IMO. I feel trapped in this life.
 
Malfunction

Malfunction

Student
Jul 27, 2024
125
Probably. Can't say for sure.

Send a firearm my way and I'm punching my ticket.
 
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