Why'd we all join? (is anyone else seeing a bunch of new users?)

[Die2night]

I heard about this site from THAT YouTuber and my mental health been declining. Figured it wouldn't hurt to talk to strangers about how I feel, knowing 2026 is probably gonna be my last year.

From what I've seen, the image that he built of this website is not even close to what it actually is. I haven't seen anyone tell one another to CTB in a post that wasn't talking about CTBing. It feels pretty welcoming, we're all struggling with the same things, why shouldn't we help each other?

 

[MrsT-800]

I've wanted to die since well over half my life now and I'm just tired. Dealing with assault, abuse, family trauma, mental and eating disorders and illness… I'm tired. My marriage is rocky and it's inching me closer. I guess I'm just over what life has dealt me. But someone has to be fate's punching bag, so I live.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

I may have stumbled on this site years ago, but can't remember for sure. Spring 2024 is when I clearly remember looking through some threads related to methods. Attempted for a couple days after planning during mid 2024. Managed to still be alive after my attempts, but the last attempt I knew my body was in trouble if I didn't call 911. Told the what happened, willingly accepted going inpatient for help. Got out of the hospital about 2 weeks later, so now it was about mid June 2024. I remembered this site and became a member. I guess I was somewhat active going into late 2024. But then shit started and I almost financially collapsed to the point of being homeless a second time in my life, so I just went offline for a good while to focus on myself. Still feeling unsettled because I'm moving again in a couple months and the details aren't completely squared away yet, but just trying to take things day by day until it gets fully figured out.

I'm disconnected from all friends and family I had prior to my attempt, so this is the only place I can connect with people who understand what going through this stuff is like.

 

[Riven]

like others in this thread, I found this site from that video (which like, he did an absolutely terrible job at censoring if he was actually not wanting people to find it). ive been struggling mentally for years now and its nice to have a place that I can talk about/ see others discussing stuff without any kind of taboo or toxic positivity. im also glad to now know of multiple good methods for ctb if i decide thats what is right for me. thats what i love about this place, it gives us all the CHOICE to do what is best for us.

 

[Unknown21]

I made an account probably within days of finding the site.

Same.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

well, i found the site over a year ago (aug.
2024) through that one tantacrul video (everyone here knows which). and of course since he did a crap job at censoring, i went looking, found it, and lurked for some time before eventually signing up (once everything in my life completely fell apart in october).

mind you, i was a minor (17) when i first discovered SaSu, the very people tantacrul was trying to protect. ironic how his video only attracted more young folks to this place....not very smart of him, hm?

but anyway, i saw this site as the perfect place to dump all my thoughts/feelings without any judgement or toxic positivity bs. plus i wanted to learn how more about certain methods, that way i can find peace once and for all when it's time for me to ctb. and i feel really glad interacting with y'all folks here....because i know i wouldn't have felt home at any other place otherwise

 

[LostAllHope666]

I wasn't able to join until recently due to the youtuber/news drama but that is how I found out about this website, the video just popped up on my recommended. That was over a year or so ago I think, I have no sense of time though. I lurked back then and recently I had something happen that just made me feel I need a place to talk without judgements or shame.

I found the regular suicide discussion subreddit wasn't the right fit for me. Whenever I spoke of something vulnerable it would just get ignored or worse, people would argue with me or say not very nice things. It made me spiral and regret ever speaking.

I couldn't find anyone to talk to, and anyone I knew personally or online couldn't handle this discussion or take my words seriously. Even now I'm very alone.

This place was framed like one of those dark web sinister places like the red rooms or whatever but honestly it just seems to be a place where people get it and don't make you feel bad for wanting to die.