Why?

[hurtgirl786]

I'm really curious as to why some of y'all are here. I know why I feel the way I do, what goes on in your heads?

 

[artificialpasta]

Because I'm incredibly alone. This is the place that gave me an answer to that.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

It feels awkward and a bit voyeuristic to be asked by someone brand new what's going on in my head and my reasons for ctb when they don't volunteer the same information about themselves. Really, there are threads pretty much every week to satisfy your curiosity about why people are here and what's in their heads

I know I'm not coming across as welcoming or warm, I have a naturally bristly response to such a post and have respectfully toned it down to being honest and direct.

Edit: Not a brand new member, but the OP's first post.

 

[hurtgirl786]

interesting that your first thought would be that I like to get off on info like that. i know there are threads but i wanted a direct response. I wouldn't personally be able to read all threads, but i can read most of the replies on my own post.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I'm really curious as to why some of y'all are here. I know why I feel the way I do, what goes on in your heads?

Who are YOU? What brings you here? Are you pro choice or Pro Life... the answer to that question will let us know in which way to take you...

Interesting you see you joined in Oct but only post now

 

[Epsilon0]

Lonliness and desire to ctb.

 

[hurtgirl786]

incredibly alone mentally? all of the above or unexplainably in a dark moment?
joined in October because i was in a darker place mentally. im here now because I've recently been going through emotional struggles and some medical inclinations that don't allow me to be able to fully be myself. Im pro choice as well. lol
are you lonely just in the way you view lonliness? or just mentally and emotionally unstimulated?

 

[WhathaveIdone]

I don't have one true happy memory since before I was 12. tried to ctb last week, failed. spent a week on a phsch ward and now want to even more. I wish I had a gun

 

[Grey-zone]

I'm really curious as to why some of y'all are here. I know why I feel the way I do, what goes on in your heads?

I joined awhile ago. I find this forum to be a comfort, in that it shows I am not alone in my feelings of hopelessness. If it weren't for SS, there really wouldn't be any convenient place to find and express thoughts like mine openly...
Ideally, there would be the possibility of some sort of social group or meetup, but suicide is such a taboo that unless the mainstream, medical view is touted, you can't really get anywhere. A person has to accept the choice of suicide before they can discuss it openly and without judgment. This place is for that.

 

[Mr. ‘K so?]

Because I want to verify some of the research that I've done and collected to make sure I'm either correct or wrong to experiment more. Success is a road that takes trial and error and a lot of researching

 

[whereispeace]

I hate myself, and believe my destiny is to die young. I can't picture myself living a long life.

 

[hurtgirl786]

I hate myself, and believe my destiny is to die young. I can't picture myself living a long life.
I feel that way too sometimes. I feel like im meant to be impactful for other peoples lives except my own.

I don't have one true happy memory since before I was 12. tried to ctb last week, failed. spent a week on a phsch ward and now want to even more. I wish I had a gun

what was the psych ward like? did being there in particular make you want to go more?

 

[braketimez]

Like another person said, I don't feel like I'm meant to grow old. I can't comprehend it. I'm 29 years old now...and believe I'll be dead within the next 10 years...at the latest. I plan to die by my own hand. Just a matter of time, even if I spend these next few years trying to improve my life.

 

[braketimez]

@hurtgirl786 Just curious. Was there a reason you just posted two posts to this thread, without replying to either of them?
See above post

It looks like she did. She just responded within the quotes.

 

[one4all]

It looks like she did. She just responded within the quotes.

Good observation. Thanks for point that out

 

[Swoods]

I am here due to depression and chronic debilitating health issues. I just want the pain and loneliness to come to an end.

 

[All an illusion]

Was lurking here and there off and on for some time...then i saw the story about the girl who committed suicide and her mom saw that she had been on this site prior to her death. This site was brushed as a disgusting pro suicide/no compassion loving shit hole....i kinda figured the media always distorts the facts so i decided to join and i've found that there are many great people here....sure most of us are hurthing inside and out but that doesn't define who we are...we all just want to find peace...sometimes it's easier said than done.