Why does it feel like I was made for this?

[JustA_LittlePerson]

I know many will relate, why then? Maybe because it's been so long, but it can't be just that, right?

 

[loneloser]

I know many will relate, why then? Maybe because it's been so long, but it can't be just that, right?

I'm going to assume this means suicide.

I feel the same. It's been too long since I've ever imagined of a future that doesn't just end with me killing myself within the next year. I feel like I was just born into this world just to kill myself, while the friends I pushed away go on to live fulfilling and successful, fun lives. I killed the little ambition I had for the future ages ago.
When it's been so long, you lose purpose and gain a sense of "What am I even supposed to do with myself?"

It probably isn't just that but I just really fucking suck at explaining my thoughts.