Discussion Why do you/others self-harm?

[Deathcrvsh]

The harm overrides the sensations of negativity and I get distracted for a bit. When I was younger I cut andvdrank alcohol but the effects are toxic in itself and I don't like or deserve that. So I switched to drugs which are only technically are a form of harm. But currently I can't get my hands on them.

Why I do this is another question. It is probably the result of the feelings that I perceive as rejection or not fitting into society or, better yet, failing in my constant attempt to gain a foothold in society and the only option I have is retreating into local and psychological isolation.

Although I get along excellently without direct interpersonal contact, digital contact and the resulting platonic bond and the resulting feelings of rejection, etc. cannot be completely switched off.

At the moment I'm just pushing through and trying to ignore myself and everything around me a little more and take it lightly.

 

[insectontrial]

For one of two reasons, and the way in which I hurt myself varies depending on the situation.

I'm autistic, and prone to sensory overload, where I often hit my head, either with my fists or against hard surfaces. I don't intend to injure myself in these moments - it's more a way of discharging the overload and wanting it all to stop.

I also SH conventionally by cutting my arms. I do this when I feel I deserve to be punished in some way, either because I'm a burden or I have caused someone to be upset with or disappointed in me. I've also done it before to redirect my attention from psychologically distressing situations and instead focus on a physical injury which needs dealing with properly.

I also abuse medication to try and dissociate and/or knock myself out for a while. Once again I tend to do this when overloaded.

 

[Atticuss]

It becomes addictive. I try really hard not to now because of the scars everywhere

 

[spectrographread]

Recently, I had a big cut and it bled a lot and stained my bed, almost my Mikus. I've done it a few times in the past 3 years and they leave scars. The ones I did recently are gray, still bumpy and VERY noticeable (got so bad I had to bandage it up and playing guitar felt painful). I generally have to hide them, but I don't to those who I trust. Really depends on who you are around with, if they will help you get through it or push you to the ground further. Had a mixture of both. I still self-harm and working on recovering, but I don't know when that will be. As for why I do this, it's like a conversion of the mental pain to physical pain, which to me is better than mental pain.

- The Divadayo